kanashimi no tenshi: just let me cry...

My tears are not free. Every drop amounts to a piece of your heart. So when I cry you a river, prepare to give me you heart. and I'll welcome it with a kiss. (012407)

Saturday, July 30, 2005

what power is compatible with me..? for whatever reason

(just didn't want to post the image as well. the result's more important. no, actually, i'm in the library and this freaking computer doesn't give chances power is: Time Control
Explanation: You have the ability to freeze, push forward or go back in time. In good purposes it is used to prevent bad deeds, and the opposite for evil purposes. As a person your emotional level has been on hold. For one reason or another emotions has reduced and now you aren't so full of life. And of course, this does not sadden you since you could care less. Sometimes though you can be hit by emotioal waves inside but you block it all out. You don't search for something that could make you happy since you have no hope in that area any longer. People probably see you as annoying because you're not involved and
just stand there. You probably don't have that many friends either, and you feel like you are with them because that's what you normally do. You stick to your habits and don't appreciate changes.

Negative aspects: One day all emotions are gonna surface again, and that day will be very painful. Instead it is more wise to start up the emotional level bit by bit, so it won't come as a big chock.

what's a CHOCK??? lol anyway, got this quiz from quizilla and if you wanna take the test too, you can just search for the quiz in there.

Friday, July 29, 2005

some pics.. or maybe just one..

++first things first...i don't know what to write in my blog. i don't know whether i'm still free to post without being judged, or whether i can still post my thoughts without being misinterpreted.. :(

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this one was taken last semester, before our Political Dynamics class started. i still had longer hair then.. and well, ria had shorter locks. (ria hazel, kristine carmela and jean marionne .... woah. gaganda ng names noh? lol)

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this one was taken via adeth's friend's (Rika) phone.

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this one.... was taken after my hair got a relax treatment from Carlo Reyes months ago.. bleargh. mataba pa'ko nyan.. (well, now, i've trimmed my waist line from 27" to 24". )

new layout- wee!!!

this new layout is sooooooooooooooooo cool!!!! hahaha~!! at last i can express myself better with this new one,... although i'm still the melancholic princess of yuri and shoujo ai, well... still yuri cos of this desire-ness. :D

am not making sense, am i? >____<;;

oh well, thanks to the layout artist, Melanie, whoever you are. I borrowed your skin and i think it's one of the most beautiful skins at blogskins.com

anyway, Adeth's just finished having her pic taken for graduation.. i guess it came out quite not the way i expected but it's alright. mapagtatyagaan.

goodluckies to those who haven't got your pics taken. hope it'll all go well. mwah!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

jeon ji-hyun~! ang gandaaaaa!!!!

ang gandaaaaaa!!!!

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Monday, July 25, 2005

HP6/july 22

I just finished reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince... (yep, my sister had it reserved months ago. :D)it is very unfortunate that Dumbledore died and Harry only has one more year to find and kill Voldemort... and although Harry is a really good wizard, I really think he is quite of an airhead...

and yeah..I, being addicted to love and its failures, am grieving deeper for the loss of Ginny-Harry relationship than ..well, Dumbledore's death. (and was extremely enjoying the fact that Hermione was jealous of Lavander Brown when "Won-won" went out with her and snogged-according to the book-during half of the story)

anyway... the commotion (was it?) last friday (22nd of July) when some people in class saw me cry on Carmela's shoulder.. what really happened was that Adeth broke up with me.. yep, she did. shocked? LOL

and brenti was joking about it saying it was great, that i am free and available and then we could..

but of course, i don't think brenti wouldn't ...y'know, being a close friend of mine..

after all, he did admit that he doesn't have a crush on me anymore.

well, Adeth and I had been having a rocky relationship, although in many ways, we know that
we care for each other so much and we know how we feel for each other..

still, there are factors that affect our relationship very much .... and it is sad that often times, she couldn't understand me. she admitted it last friday.

one of these factors that gave the heaviest bearing that fatal day was Paolo, a former "friend". I liked him a lot, even did the stupidest of things which Adeth had always asked if I regretted doing.

to make the story short, Adeth and i broke up that Sports Journalism class when Ma'am Mamawal called my name for attendance and Ria and the others noticed that I wasn't sitting at my seat next to Adeth.

She said she couldn't understand me anymore... and yes, I cried a lot.

and I'm going to stop telling the story for now and maybe continue with an update soon.

goodnight folks.

PS: Happy Birthday to jMe Zamodio and Joyce Aralar.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005


Three names you go by:
1. Jama (my real nickname)
2. Jam (nickname ng nickname)
3. Marion (wala lang)

Three screen names you have had:
1. meatatarian14 (MTVgrafitti wall days)
2. akasha_10 (WAA days)
3. yuriprincess

Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. Smile
2. eyebrows
3. waist line

Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. legs/binti
2. upper arm
3. hair

Three parts of your heritage:
1. Pilipino
2. Kastila
3. Chinese

Three things that scare you:
1. cockroaches (even dead ones)
2. failure
3. panels

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. kiss & hug from .......... ahahaha!!!
2. something to drink, usually water or iced tea
3. face powder

Three of your favorite musical artists:
1. Hanson
2. Barbie's Cradle
3. The Corrs

Three of your favorite songs:
1. "Underneath", Hanson
2. "I will come to you", Hanson
3. "Runaway", The Corrs

Three things you want in a relationship:
1. Trust
2. Honesty
3. Romance

Three lies and truths in no particular order:
1. Nakalimutan ko na sya entirely (partly, yes)
2. Hindi ako plastic
3. Mayaman ako (or bourgeoise.. kayo lang ang nagsasabe nyan!!)

1. I'm a failure
2. There are days that I really really really want to die.
3. I'm such a melancholic/sadistic/masochistic person

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. Great eyes
2. Height
3. hair

Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. Music - listening, singing
2. Reading
3. malling

Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. go to det's house
2. Have my ears pierced
3. Have my bellybutton pierced

Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. Broadcast journalist
2. company lawyer
3. actress (yahahaha!!!)

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. France
2. Japan
3. south Korea

Three kid's names you like:
1. Hime Aya Eponin (basta!!! mahal ko yang pangalan na yan!!)
2. Tomoe Katherine
3. Marion Elise (oo. sa m2m, ang ganda ng pangalan nya eh)

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. Marry ........ ahahahah!!! (ulet)
2. hear him say he's sorry and he regrets
3. pet my cats

Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. I look at girls a lot.
2. I pull pranks on some people.
3. I don't want others sharing my ....

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. I like romance
2. I like to look girlish
3. I get "kilig" when there's a cute guy..

Three celeb crushes:
1. Zac Hanson (waaahhh!!)
2. wala na
3. wala na

THREE people that I would like to see take this quiz:
1. mela (mahilig kse mag-net)
2. ria (same reason)
3. adeth (wala lang..)

sick... to the point of dying..

this one is very dedicated to me and adeth...

If I'm gonna die tomorrow
would you care?
If I would leave you tonight
would you bade farewell?
If I would want to
take you with me

would you come?

gwahh... adeth and I are sick. we weren't able to come to class last monday because she was sick with fever and I, with LBM. :( well, so far.. I'm coping with it... while Bernadette has gotten worse. she's sick with tigdas. :( God...

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

si mela...

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hehe. cute ba namen ni mela?? :) sobrang nagkakasundo kme kaya super friend ko sya. XD

Sunday, July 10, 2005


i have this big mouth sore on the tip of my tongue. i have a toothache somewhere near my molars. i think my wisdom tooth is growing, maybe that way i'll gain wisdom. -.-;; my archipelago of nunals (what do they call it in english?) gets painful sometimes and my doctor of a sister tells me to have it checked by a dermatologist and have it examined for biopsy.. mya~...

she says it'll have to be scraped from my back... ouch Y_________Y

i watched My Sassy Girl last night.. i cried again. i think it's a very beautiful story with an unusual ending.. cos i thought they wouldn't get back together. anyway...

here's how i look when i just woke up. XD

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Friday, July 08, 2005

thank yous

i only want to thank those who actually nominated me to be 4JRN1's representative for this year's Mr. & Ms Journ. I really appreciate your trust. But if Joyce Valencia didn't get her ms 4jrn1 title back, i dont know if i'd bring you justice. I don't want to fail your expectations, whether you have any. it's just that i don't have the confidence even thought i have a few talents in singing, dancing and acting. i don't have the expertise, ..jack of all trades. in my case, JILL of all trades.

still, thank you guys... mwah!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

what a week~!

haaayyyyyy.... grabe na itoh. baket andaming ginagawa~!!!!! mya~

ok, so our thesis is doing well, according to our boss, Ms Pusta. I can't believe she can be extremely nice to us~! lol ... just a few additional info on our related lit and then we proceed to categorizing for methodology.

and then there's LIT Criticism, the freaking course gives crappy readings. canon. classics. mya~ I do like to read but... it's NOT THE ONLY SUBJECT WE'RE IN!!! she's just assigned poetics and oedipus rex for monday, which is... 4 days away. and we're going to memorize the what!? meaning of tragedy??

tragedy is having LIT crit as a course and Prof. Aldaba as instructor for special writing. mya~

then there's Land Reform Taxation. We're reading cases!! I feel like i'm in law school. >_< it's actually a preparation for me, and i'm quite enjoying it but.. .heck. i'm sleeping a few minutes after midnight and wake up really early to continue and then get ready for 8 AM classes.

i looooooveeee being busy. now, i'm in Morayta, typing my Philosophy homework on complete happiness and God. >_> i also had our raw materials (for thesis) aka Adult Fictions or PRON~! (yay!) photocopied for Ms. Pusta and Meysil. (HI ey!! *waves*)

PS: happy birthday in advance to Usha C. Adina (my *angel*'s mom) in Singapore.