kanashimi no tenshi: just let me cry...

My tears are not free. Every drop amounts to a piece of your heart. So when I cry you a river, prepare to give me you heart. and I'll welcome it with a kiss. (012407)

Sunday, October 21, 2007

and so it ends...

by Brandy

How could she ever fool around
Don't know what she was thinking 'bout
While you were giving love
She let you down
Boy I know that you want to be alone
Cause she broke your heart
And she sent you home
And you're wondering why
She was so cold

Well when they lie
They have to lie again
Cause the lying never ends

Even if you don't believe
You will always hear the truth
Come from me
(Baby) I'll never lie
And you're the reason
I will always tells the truth
Cause the truth resides in me

Boy I know it's a crying shame
Baby no no you shouldn't blame
Yourself for what she did
She was insane
Maybe where you go I will go
Whatever makes you happy
Let me know
My heart will be right there
To console you

Maybe the lies will never begin
I will be your lover, your best friend

I will never say goodbye
And I don't want to see you cry
God only knows I love you
But it's written in my eyes
You are the only one for me
There's no way I could ever leave
I would never, no never never lie to you

Lies aren't everything. It's how people forgive and forget that what matters most. Though some people forgive completely, they can't forget. It's not in their nature to forget. That's why people who lie get hurt because their lies become a huge deal though it's not. ANd no matter how much you love them, whatever you have will no longer work.

So if you think this set up is the best for us, I will not stop you. If it's best for us, best that we separate, so be it then.

4 years. kaput.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

nalulungkot ako...

madami akong ikinalulungkot.

pagkawasak ng mga pangarap. hinanakit sa taong minamahal. hindi makatulong sa taong nangangailangan. oras na nasasayang. oras na hindi maibigay. pagkawasak ng pagmamahal. pagbaba ng moral. kawalan ng pera. kawalan ng pag-asa. kawalan ng kakayahang lumaban. pabigat. pag-iinarte. pagiging manhid. kawalan ng pagmamahal. galit. inis. nakalimutang nakaraan. hindi makalimutang nakaraan. hindi maiwasang sakit. hindi maiwasang kamatayan.

sana ako na lang ang mamatay. sana totoo ang death note na binili ko sa comic alley kahit alam kong hindi 'yun totoo. sinubukan ko, hindi nangyari.

panlinis ng silver. segundo lang. o kaya matulog pagka-inom ng mga sleeping pills at beer. ok ka na.