kanashimi no tenshi: just let me cry...

My tears are not free. Every drop amounts to a piece of your heart. So when I cry you a river, prepare to give me you heart. and I'll welcome it with a kiss. (012407)

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

just some things..good things.

> Hold on to my lover/ As we cross the street./ Tightly./ And feel her pulse ... (Vertigo, Nerissa del Carmen Guevara)
ooh.. tonight at 9 PM, she'll launch her book+CD, which i forgot the title ^-^ and i am wanting to go (but it's 9 PM and i have a curfew) 'coz she offers her book+CD for 500 php. *pouts* once the book+CD is released, and is probably distributed by Powerbooks & Music One, they'll put in a heavy amount increase. it'll probably reach up to a thousand. The CD, sold separately, amounts to300 php plus the book, which I think will amount to more than 500 php. eep! *money money money* Y_Y
> Then it's time to write desperate songs/ then it's time to mourn/ And I swore that you came for all the times that I prayed for peace... (When the Bough breaks, Barbie's Cradle)
Barbie Almalbis and some other reat musicians are featured in Ma'am Ricci's CD. ^-^ ...trivia. barbie sang Nescafe's new theme: one good day coming up~! ack... i really didn't know.. >_<>
>Sometimes when you look too much, you see more than what you want. (Umbrella Country, forgot the author)
i didn't like my dream last sunday night. why do people dream? dreams represent our subconscious desires/or fear.. maybe i feared that it would happen. that i'd shout your name, followed by my feelings for you, and you'd just laugh.. a laughter that pierced even through my dreaming heart.
>You'll die if you stop loving me. (Memento Mori)
or maybe i'll die first. then i'll make you follow me.maybe in another dimenson, we'd be allowed t o love each other.
>What a terrible thing to be pretty when you're sad. Sadness shouldn't be pretty. (Beauty's release, Anne Rice)
for some people, like me, sadness IS pretty. and everything that is relaed to it . tears, blood, painful memories. pretty but painful. painful but pretty.
>I want to give my tears to you so that you are free to cry. (legend of the Condor Hero)
yesterday, my tearducts gave way for a few drops of tears just because i said i love you to her. it felt so weird but it dawned on me: that maybe those tears representedmy overflowing love for her. it flowed too much that i couldn't suppress it anymore. this may sound disgusting & weird, but i wiped my tears to her cheek.
>I hate you because you're happy, and I'm not. (Wasted, Alanguilan)
Cynical me takes over. *slips on a mask then smiles* Don't see me.
>In this world, there is sadness so profound you can't even cry. Like you're being surrounded by a deep, endless darkness. (Cross my heart, Ayashi No Ceres)
endless darkness, endless sadness. endless life. it goes around & around it makes the world go round. like love, for Hanson. >_< >I am not falling for you but one step forward and you might fall for me. (forgot who..^-^;;)
...just so pretty...and strong. yes.
>If you can't love with the same intensity as your past love, don't love at all. (Kris Aquino)
enough said.
>Know yourself and make sure that the church doesn't find out. (Sappho, Art & Lies, Winterson)
church says that her institution is accepting and does not exclude anyone. right. tell that to the marines.
>I hate to say it but you're perfect together. So fuck you and your untouchavle face. (Untuchable face. Ani Difranco)
geez. for some reason, i just want to scream those lines at people. everyone seems untouchable, too distant, and goddamn absorbed with themselves that they can't even follow a traffic light.
>Ang lungkot ay walang imik na dalangin. (Rio Alma)
and according to mahatma gandhi, praying is not asking. it is a longing of the soul.

Monday, August 30, 2004

on becoming a polyglot..

gwah. Spanish quiz this morning: i got an 84! and yeah, it is a *high* score for me. i had very low expectation..but still hoped for a higher grade. and 84's what I got. hwehe..

i'm thinking of taking up French lessons and Japanese lessons..probably on summer or next semester. and am gonna enroll on a driving lesson this sembreak...although i already know how to drive. popo said it'll be better if i practice on somebody else's car first before taking the stirring-wheel from him. hwehe.. abuso.

det wants me to eat sisig today..ack!! i don't wanna eat pig brains or anything..but i guess, or maybe i'll survive. hopefully. harhar.

i got a new bestfriend. XD karl (toni's inaanak) just asked me last night to be his besty.. nice.. btw, i heard MMMBop yesterday at Campus Radio 97.1 LSFM.. :)

Saturday, August 28, 2004


i stumbled upon this "which vampire chronicles character are you?" quiz and quickly answered it with so much excitement..got so eager to know the results, hoping to get an Akasha or Claudia result... but the result said: You can be anyone. ...ts. wadahek. by the way, i love the vampire chronicles of Anne Rice. (she's one of my fave authors..) and i have always liked Akasha.. she hated this world because it's so dirty, and malicious, and ack... evil. Akasha-even if she is actually the Queen of those damned, she's not evil to me. she killed those men, sucked out their blood, because those men are alive to suffer. and to lessen their suffering, gawd. just kill 'em all. har har. (and yeah..i liked Claudia because she was played by Kirsten Dunst. hek hek. and also because she was able to love despite being born when she was still a little girl).

btw, i took another quizilla quiz: "Is he a friend..or more?" and here goes the result: There's Something There... You two definitely have some chemistry developing...Just make sure not to push it too hard, or else your friendship might be ruined. Then again, since you both like each other, go ahead and take a chance...But not a huge one.

actually, am not gonna comment on anything about that. i don't want to make a big deal out of it. it's no biggie anyway.

personality test result..

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Emotional Stability34%
Social Assertiveness70%
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got this one from ee-chan who got his from abby's blog. ehehe.. i guess i'm somehow normal ne?

another boring saturday

fark. ...guess what I just did. >_> the freakin extension phone line upstairs doesn't work so i had to bring my PC unit downstairs..gawd. and our staircase is a spiral one and has 13 steps. T__T pahirap~!!!

fark part_2: sakit ng batok ko last night, and i got a freakin headache.. popo said my super lakas period could have caused it. >_<

fark part_3: mag-isa lang ako sa bahay ngayon... ok lang sana.. kaya lang walang pagkain!!!!!! T___T *food food food*

Friday, August 27, 2004

kelangan ko ng..

+ pain reliever. ang sakit ng puson ko. T__T
+ ideas for short story and poems for lifestyle magazine. >_<
+ idea for utility article
+ middle of nowhere CD
+ road to albertane VCD
+ mapanood ang Princess Diaries 2

..madami pang iba..
hak hak.. august 25. sucked.

twin sisters..ulet.

ayan.. ang cute ni wallace huo at ni jason hsu..XD acckkkk!!! lol cute ng pairing nila.
ang cute devah!?

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

farkin blog

font size for link is too big. ack. dunno how to make it smaller.

ee-chan texted me. > i told adeth. >she got mad.

went to richmonde hotel to eat lunch. >ate too much. >ended up starved. still. >det - still mad

sang Himno Nacional in Spanish class and couldnt reach the high notes. bleargh. >confrontation..T__T > det threw the ring near my face. >i threw mine too. somewhere inside my room. >reported Utility article in Feature class and couldnt explain much on my topic. >didnt eat coz i already feel too fat.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

snow fairy and me..tonight..we love to roll the windows down

..and turn the radio up! (i'm being weird am i? *nods*)
** The Ultimate Fairy Quiz** (by quizilla)

You are like the snow fairy, she is very beautiful, she has the power to make things beautiful, but She is sometimes quite selfish, and spends most of the time she should be using her magic staring at her self in the mirror. Other than the fact that she is vain and selfish. She is a nice person, when she IS actually using her magic, her powers are great, and she is very helpful.

true? think so too..

What's your theme song? (by sothenwefell)

Alkaline Trio - Radio You've got a fire burning inside of you. Vengeful and bitter, you've been hurt in the past, and don't plan on forgetting it soon. This may seem like a bad thing, but really, you're just holding others to the same high standards you hold yourself. And when somebody crosses you, they'd better be ready for a storm. You may be in the habit of keeping negative feelings bottled up inside you, brewing up to a bursting point. Are all those grudges really directed at who you think they are, or is it just bad energy trying to break out of you? Getting angry is a natural part of the grieving process, and if it will help you move on, anger can help you. Just remember to move on once you're done.

tagapagdagdag ng diez

*chants* tagapagdagdag ng diez diez diez~ LMAO.. (salamat, kuya art. binuhay mo ang highschool spirit ko. XD)

my sister went home today.. and the ride home was alright. we were all in a jolly mood and cracked jokes and stuff.. laughed our lungs out. XD

scary lang..my mother's officemate's niece, 17 years old, was stabbed to death at their family's house.. and her boyfriend was the suspect. according to the 'stories'..the boyfriend and another girl (a friend daw) came to the house to visit and saw the girl lying on the floor.. but instead of seeking for help, the boyfriend dragged the girl's body to the CR and gave her a bath. (whatta!?) ..the girl was stabbed many times, on her back, her arm, her chest and had a slit on her throat.

i pray for her soul. and for justice.
happy birthday to katherine and katrina estacio who were both in a Hanson concert this morning (2130H; Canadian time).

Thursday, August 19, 2004

memegen still doesn't work

Your Love Life by lpfloatsmyboat
favorite color:
best physical quaility:lips
best personality trait:people person
will you marry your bf/gf that you have now?yes!
when will you get married?January 17, 2019
your kiss is:meaningful!
People date you because:you're smart
Quiz created with MemeGen!

100% señorita~!

LOL. i'm just wondering.. is it already programmed for guys that when girls approach them first or make the first move, they always say.. "ndi ko pa iniisip yun." or something similar???


yesterday, i was watching Twin Sisters, 100% Señorita and this Felicity character (anabelle?) made the first move on this Wesley guy and he gave the same answer.

duwag ba sila??? wekeke..

Monday, August 16, 2004

is hell the place for me?
I'm sorry to break it to you like this but you're retarded. Don't worry your goin to heaven but their gonna stick you with all the dead downies whom drank the pretty liquids under the sink. You would'nt last five seconds in hell you fuckin dumbshit.

this doesn't make sense. it didn't even answer the question. >_>

Sunday, August 15, 2004

what kind of a girlfriend am I?

i'm having difficulty on what to put on my freakin feature article. i think i'm gonna do a feature about startalk's stand on keanna's escort service. cool but redundant. waii~! so i got bored and took lotsa quizzes from quizilla. this one, i got from sugarsmile (ria hazel).

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.

(nice one. thank you. thank you. *waves*)

ndi ako bulag.

august 14...and the events that happened.

...1985: Ron Aldrin (my ex-boyfriend..for formality's sake, 'coz i DO NOT really consider him as one..) is born... on a slum area. lol.

...2002: Carlo (kyozo) tells me that nataku-/loki/ravenel (oops.) likes me too.

...2003: Bench & I almost breaks up because she finds out that i am still in love with nataku-/loki/ravenel (oops. again.)

...2004: my father and i fights during breakfast because my gum bleeds when accidentally poked by toothbrush bristles.

Saturday, August 14, 2004

some quiz results

what kind of kiss am I?

You have a dominant kiss

... you take charge and make sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully, it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into you playing the dominant role MEORW!

(i've always known that i am a great kisser. *pokes det* diba? diba?)

brought to me =_='' by quizilla

what is my sexual appeal?

i knew it~! hahaha!! *nudges det again*

brought to me =_='' by quizilla

Friday, August 13, 2004

...it feels as if everything makes me feel so low.
...as if something keeps me from being happy.
...as if everyone is looking in
and i can't breathe.
(maybe if i see a psychologist, this depression will fade. and this anorexia.)