finito~

hwehehe. i had already finished reading persons and the family code. URESHI~!! kaso.. naubusan na ako ng anime dvds. Tactics na lang ang nandito na ndi ko pa napapanood... pero kasi naman... Tactics. kabadingan. hahah! PEACE, M-chan.

Yun.. gusto ko ng Maria-sama ga miteru kasi ang meron lang ako, Spring. eh... gusto ko madami~~~ at wala akong panahong bumili. T__T

bahd.

anyway.. i need to practice Etude and Minuet 2. Minuet 2 is a lot harder than the first, gawd. My left ring finger has blisters on its tip. T__T

i was actually trying to write a Card Captor Sakura fanfic in connection with the Create Card and the Book with no name. and again, it's a love-drama-tragedy thing but i still couldn't finish it... but i'm half-way there.. no, not really. it's actually between the intro and the rising action.. but... i can't continue anymore!! it's like a writer's block but i have the plot in my head, i just can't write it!

speaking of CCS, i've finished the whole series and i wasn't exactly happy with the ending because... well, it's quite different from the one in the manga.. I wanted to see Li-kun all grown up. myehehe...

Oh Yue...

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"From now on, you're just someone that I used to love..." I heard the song earlier when my mother sang it in the videoke. hweheh... so there...... from now on, you're just someone that I used to love.

HAHAHA << evil laugh.

delayed emotions

+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong hindi marunong tumanggap ng pagkakamali pero mahilig pumuna sa mali ng iba.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong masakit magsalita dahil sa pag-aakalang matututo ang tao sa ganong paraan.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong hindi mo mapagsalitaan ng masama kahit gaano na kasama ang loob mo.
+ nakakapagod ang pagrespeto sa taong hindi marunong rumespeto sa ibang tao.
+ nakakapagod makipagtalo sa taong hindi marunong tumanggap ng pagkatalo.
+ nakakapagod makinig sa taong paulit-ulit ang sinasabi.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong hindi sensitibo sa pangangailangan ng mga tao sa paligid n'ya.
+ nakakapagod tumingin sa taong hindi mo mapatawad.
+ nakakapagod magmahal ng taong hindi mo mapatawad.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong pagod ka nang mahalin.

ne, kung guilty ka, magbago ka na. kung ndi ka tinatamaan, wag mong pansinin.

Homicide.

Stitch had just killed a kitten. She bit the kitten's neck which probably caused its death. We couldn't do anything anymore except to watch the kitten take a few more heavy, deep breaths before it passed away.

I slapped Stitch twice but that was all I could do, after all, she is a dog and has less mental faculties than man has. ::sigh:: I hope the kitten will forgive her and us, humans, too.

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anyway, i cleaned my desk and started seriously with Persons. I don't want to deal anymore with "animosity" (as popo called it yesterday) in the family whenever the topic is brought up. Popo wants me to take the best shot at Persons next sem, as if it would bring about anything. I already have a failed subject so no matter how much I persevere to get the highest grade possible, I can no longer get into the Dean's list or graduate with honors. It is written in the handbook.

I also started with violin self-study this morning after I got my mp3 player from my sister yesterday. I had been practicing 13 songs since vacation started because I couldn't start with the 14th song in the songbook. I needed the mp3 player for that.

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::sigh:: I miss Pepe. It's been almost three weeks since we last saw each other. But we talk whenever we get the time so it's still ok..

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I wrote a short story this morning. :) I inserted a few lines from some poems I read in the compilation for Ms. Maningning Miclat. I hope she's attained happiness wherever she is.

maaahhhh

Sa aking pag iisa
Di maiwasang maalala ka
tamis ng iyong halik, paulit-ulit na nagbabalik
at nasasabik pag iniisip ka sa pag iisa

sa aking pagiisa,
ang yakap mo ay hanap hanap pa
haplos ng iyong kamay ay pilit ko paring ginagaya
habang hawak k0 ang larawan m0 at nagiisa

kung magkikita tayong muli,
hindi k0 na ikukublina nais madama muli ang iyong pagibig,
kahit sandali
ibigin mo ako ngayon at bukas ay iwanan mo ak0
ng bagong alaala sa aking pag iisa

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wala lang...

I wanna have a copy of Gerald Levert's Closure song... that "can't get you out of my system" song... ^^

kainis

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mahabang kwento

hm. nagpunta ako sa doctor kanina. ipapa - 2D Echo daw ako.

ayoko sana magpaganun and other lab tests like blood chem and urinalysis kasi dagdag gastos na naman, hindi naman importante.

minsan ayoko na lang mag-complain kapag may masakit sa'kin para wala nang mag-aalala, wala nang gagastos, etc.

oh well...

nung pauwi na kami, tumirik yung dala naming sasakyan sa highway ng Cardona, Rizal. hahaha!! nawalan ng gas. kaya minabuti na naming tawagan si Popo para tulungan kami...

just imagine, sunset, nasa highway kami pero ang nasa kanan namin ay bundok, nasa kaliwa ay bangin... at andun kami, si mama, ang lola ko, at ako. tatlong babae, isang nakatirik na sasakyan, at sangkatutak na trak ang dumadaan...

at pagdating ni Popo, tumatawa s'ya. nakaka-relieve na for once, nagkaproblema at hindi nagalit si Popo... natural high yon para sa'kin. rare experience... :)

oh well...

natapos ko na ang Princess Hours.. natawa ako sa ibang parts, naluha ako sa iba... pero naisip ko lang:

kung nasasaktan ka dahil hindi alam ng taong nagmamahal sa'yo na mahal mo din s'ya, bakit hindi mo pa sabihin kung alam mo din naman na ikaw din ang makakapagpasaya sa kanya? Anong nakakatakot dun?

oh well...

may hana yori dango na pala sa GMA. kelan ang simula? ayaw ipapanood sa'kin ni Det yun eh, dahil si Matsumoto Jun ang bida. >_> sa-shotgunin daw n'ya yung TV namin. hahahaha!!

dati, nag-away pa kami at almost nagbreak (o nagbreak nga?) dahil hindi ko sinabi sa kanya na bumili ako ng Gokusen... ayaw n'ya talagang ipapanood sa'kin yun dahil kay Matsumoto.. at dahil dun sa isang character na blonde ang kulay ng buhok. Autistic daw kasi sila...

ayun lang... hahaha.. ^^ PICTURE PICTURE! (highschool barkada at Karate Kid, Eastwood. Before Aissa left for UAE.)

boredom can kill oh yeah oh yeah

alam n'yo kung anong mahirap pag bakasyon? ...yung wala ka nang magawa, mamamatay ka na sa boredom. yun.

kaya eto, pic na lang... dalawang pusa sa bahay: Misono and Kuruken

happy? sad? basta bakasyon na.

Bakasyon na~ yey! Time for rest and … of course, occasional studying. XD I have to review my Persons cos I’m gonna retake it next sem.

Anyway, to start off my vacation, Det slept in my dorm the night after the last exam (which is scarier than I expected. Waah) then I went home the next day. I got to see my cat, Misono, ... sa wakas.

Some of my classmates and I went swimming last March 28. It was fun and the scenery was really breathtaking. The resort was atop a mountain and we could see Laguna on the other side of the Laguna Bay. Sayang, halos lahat ng ka-close ko ndi nakasama. Like Mi-chan, Claire, and some of my Kada. Andun lang si Ate Shiela and Marian, and of course my guy friends Hadjie and Ritchel. :D

Tapos I discovered something… hahaha! No, actually, Ritchel told me. It wasn’t really a discovery. XD

My newest addiction (kahit na huling huli na ako...) Meteor Garden!

Tapos, ngayon, April 3… we floated last night. No, actually, the 4 years we had ended last night. It was revived, sure, but… oh well. I don’t know… if you’re hurting the person you love, would you leave her just because of that? Aren’t you going to do something to change everything that hurts? Like the song, “Don’t wanna try” … It goes like “Don’t wanna try no more cos what’s the use of holding on when all we do is hurt our love.” It’s really sad… and painful. I mean, just because you think there are lots of cats who are after your gurl, you’re just gonna stop? Come on. That’s not fair. The gurl didn’t ask for them. Or if she did, would it hurt if she’s not entertaining them? Nahh…

I’m not in the mood to write actually, kaya my sentences are choppy and taglish. Maahhhh … sensha na. Harhar