belated happy birthdays to...

++ Eka-san, 20, September 22++
++ Nee-chan CHO, 23, September 24++
++ Anata, DETSKIDUDELTH, 19, September 25++
++ Tomodachi-san, Marian, 21, September 27++

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ayon.. bumagyo. tanggal ang bubong ng katapat-dorm. gumiba ang Indian mango tree sa bahay. naligo sa ulan habang naglilimas ng tubig sa 4th floor with Felix sisters. tumumba ang mga puno sa Lacson. walang pasok kahapon at ngayon. tambak pa rin ang kasong dapat basahin. Articles 15 to 70 pa rin sa Criminal Law. nag-walk out si Judge Cornejo dahil sa dalawang bungisngis sa classroom. walang kuryente kahapon.Ndi napanood ang Gokusen. tulog. P.A.N.T.S galore with Sheryll the roommate. Without signal ang Globe.

leisure? what leisure?

i can only think of two advantages for landing on the top 5 Political Law preliminary exam. (1) My chance of failing became slimmer and (2) prestige. Other than those two, disadvantages. They're not pure disadvantages though, just that, I am forced to study harder now to maintain the grade. and that's even when I have a subject to lift from the slums.

Atty. Sandoval's words were scary.

"Tandaan n'yo, markado na kayo."

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M-chan and I went home late the other night cos she told me about a lot of stuff. and they were all amazing. i can't stop thinking about my past, what i was then, and did it make an effect on me at the present.

I am pretty sure that many people will think that M-chan is weird, or her ideas and knowledge are weird, but not me. M-chan is winged.

could it be that i can find my past when it has already found me?

if you have the power to change something about yourself, will you change it?

you reap what you sow eh. damn it. had some problems with one 5-unit prelim exam. damn it. hope it's the last.

have to study harder this time. no more too much confidence build-up or else, ...i don't want to be studying law in some whatever-college or university few months from now.

michelle's been topping the exams since ...what. statcon? anyway, she's ...really smart. can't believe she chose UST over UP where she came from. don't know if it's a good choice or not.
have two more exams to agonizingly wait for. damn it.

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Det and I watched snakes on a plane last tuesday. it was so hilarious when i screamed.. cos i was the only person in the movie house who did. damn snakes. am not really scared of them before, i had one huge and long snake draped over my shoulders a year or two years ago in Tagaytay zoo and it was almost nothing to me. the scales are just icky when they move. damn snakes.

then the snakes on the movie scared me. cos the snakes there were deadly, huge and fat. and fast-moving, scaly, soft-looking blah. and i realized i got more awkward in the presence of snakes.

claire and i were walking along morayta last thursday then this freakin person held two real, moving snakes towards me and i thought my heart leaped two inches above my head.

snakes are dangerous cos they kill people and they kill each other, their own kind. reminds me of how people are.

dangerous.

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i've already switched from Smart to Globe people. i'll be posting my new number in some yahoo!groups..

heartbreaker

BARISTA! GOOD LUCK SA'YO!
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ayaw ko munang mag-english. napupurga na'ko. english pag klase, pag recitation, pag nagbabasa. grrrrr

hay nako. nakaka-miss ang college. yung tipong aabsent ka ng walang dahilan, pagpasok mo, parang wala ka lang na-miss na lecture. nakaka-miss din yung tipong bago mag-klase, manonood ka lang ng sine tapos pagpasok mo sa hapon, wala lang. kahit ndi ka mag-aral, mabubuhay ka, makaka-uno ka pa rin.

dito sa sitwasyon ko, pahirapang humanap ng panahong manood ng sine. na kapag nanood ka lang, mas gugustuhin mo pang mag-absent kahit nakakulong ka lang sa dorm dahil hindi ka nakapag-review. na kahit nabasa mo na ng ilang beses ang isang 100-pages na topic sa gabing yon, ndi mo pa rin magagawang pumasok kapag nanood ka lang ng sine.

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sa lahat ng ayaw ko.. yung nakakasakit ako ng tao. lalo na yung magtatapat ng nararamdaman, magtatanong kung anong katayuan nya sa buhay ko tapos sa akin manggagaling na hanggang dun lang yung pagtingin ko sa kanya.

bakit ganoonnnnn? ayaw ko nun dahil naramdaman ko nang ma-basted. sobrang sakit, kaya ayaw kong ganon. ayaw kong nasasaktan ang tao dahil sa akin.

si Ron, apat na taon nang nangungulit, nagtatanong, nababasted. at nakakainis dahil ayaw nyang tumigil. nakakainis ndi dahil nakukulitan na ako kundi dahil parati na lang silang nasasaktan.

and then my friend, _ _ _ _ _.

nadagdagan pa. :(

sa inyong tatlo, pasensya na. kahit ayaw kong masaktan kayo, hindi naman pwedeng pilitin ang sarili kong magustuhan din kayo.