hay nako.

Maa ne.. you get some, you lose some.

::sigh:: what could i do, ne? nothing. what could my grade be? how come i couldn't enroll oblicon..? there are so many questions that are yet to be answered. i'm wondering if i can have the answers to them all.

but surprisingly, everyone was ok with that. they were all telling me to go on, not to look backwards but forward, ...

i guess i am ok because they are ok. and i realized, i am doing this because i want to please them.
would there be a difference if i do it not because of them but because of myself? if so, would that difference be a positive or a negative one?

i wonder... maybe.. the negative. because i can be easily contented and others cannot. so whatever i do, no matter how they say that i am a perfectionist, if i think that what i did was already the best, then that's it. and my best is always not the best for them.

for some reason.

::sigh::
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Ee-chan and I met yesterday at SM Manila. It was fun. And I'm sorry that we did even if you objected.

i'm sure you know it was all innocent fun.

and i'm sorry if you saw a text message from that someone you despise in my inbox. it doesn't mean anything.

because i love you.