kanashimi no tenshi: just let me cry...

moving...

2008-01-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

i'm moving to my multiply blog. i'll still visit this site every now and then but i'll no longer put entries here.

visit if you have time, and if you care enough. it doesn't matter if you don't or you can't.

ja ne.
http://yuriprincess.multiply.com

happy new year!

2008-01-07T11:04:00.000+08:00

that's all.. happy new year..

can't wait for L word season 5. haay.......... prelims na. and i feel like my head's still empty.

LISA...

2007-12-09T18:30:00.000+08:00

i bought myself a Canon powershot digital camera, "Lisa", last night at SM Taytay... i think it's the first gadget i bought with my own money.. (i saved half of the amount, then i'm going to pay myself up with more savings i'm planning to have before the end of February, 2008. hehe)

i'm trying to set up a multiply account, visit: yuriprincess.multiply.com ...it's under construction at the moment...

wala lang. :)

birthday is 5 days away.

detached.

2007-12-07T12:44:00.000+08:00

yup. no more links, no more connections. it's done. it's over. it's long over.

haay...

2007-11-28T13:39:00.000+08:00

nakakairita. demanding. grr. andami na ngang kaso, may paper pa. grr... gusto ko lang mag-rant.

natutuwa ako... ndi naman pala imposibleng maka-90 sa law school.

:(

2007-11-20T23:32:00.001+08:00

softly tiptoeing
quietly creeping
like a silent sun
setting beyond
oblivion.
she faces her darkness,
bravely.
so bravely.

--
i pray for everyone's strength.

--
i'm so sorry.

and so it ends...

2007-10-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

Truthfully
by Brandy

How could she ever fool around
Don't know what she was thinking 'bout
While you were giving love
She let you down
Boy I know that you want to be alone
Cause she broke your heart
And she sent you home
And you're wondering why
She was so cold

Well when they lie
They have to lie again
Cause the lying never ends
So...

Truthfully
Even if you don't believe
You will always hear the truth
Come from me
(Baby) I'll never lie
And you're the reason
I will always tells the truth
Cause the truth resides in me

Boy I know it's a crying shame
Baby no no you shouldn't blame
Yourself for what she did
She was insane
Maybe where you go I will go
Whatever makes you happy
Let me know
My heart will be right there
To console you

Maybe the lies will never begin
I will be your lover, your best friend
So...

I will never say goodbye
And I don't want to see you cry
God only knows I love you
But it's written in my eyes
You are the only one for me
There's no way I could ever leave
I would never, no never never lie to you
Truthfully

==
Lies aren't everything. It's how people forgive and forget that what matters most. Though some people forgive completely, they can't forget. It's not in their nature to forget. That's why people who lie get hurt because their lies become a huge deal though it's not. ANd no matter how much you love them, whatever you have will no longer work.

So if you think this set up is the best for us, I will not stop you. If it's best for us, best that we separate, so be it then.

==
4 years. kaput.

nalulungkot ako...

2007-10-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

madami akong ikinalulungkot.

pagkawasak ng mga pangarap. hinanakit sa taong minamahal. hindi makatulong sa taong nangangailangan. oras na nasasayang. oras na hindi maibigay. pagkawasak ng pagmamahal. pagbaba ng moral. kawalan ng pera. kawalan ng pag-asa. kawalan ng kakayahang lumaban. pabigat. pag-iinarte. pagiging manhid. kawalan ng pagmamahal. galit. inis. nakalimutang nakaraan. hindi makalimutang nakaraan. hindi maiwasang sakit. hindi maiwasang kamatayan.

sana ako na lang ang mamatay. sana totoo ang death note na binili ko sa comic alley kahit alam kong hindi 'yun totoo. sinubukan ko, hindi nangyari.

panlinis ng silver. segundo lang. o kaya matulog pagka-inom ng mga sleeping pills at beer. ok ka na.

you again.

2007-09-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

naiinis ako sa'yo... you said you're my friend pero you're just a self-serving, two-faced ....i don't wanna say bitch cos you're so much worse than that.

serves you right... sa dami ng problema mo, you used to cry for my help.. one strange word you got from me and you stabbed my back so hard, i'm gonna make you regret.

try me. keep your friends close, and your enemies, closer.

ndi ko na kasalanan yun.

2007-09-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

para sa'yo...

in the first place, wala na kayong relasyon. so i don't think you should still feel upset about it.

in the second, i have no interest in his type. only you falls for that kind of guy.

in the third, i never betrayed you.

ok.. so stop feeling as if i stole anyone from you. it's not my fault anymore if he likes me.

boys.

2007-08-19T12:54:00.000+08:00

Hey! Say! 7 ... kawaii~!!! XD cute lang nila lahat.. napanood ko sila sa Music Station this morning... hwehehehe... the youngest did ballet. or something like that. nose bleed.

say it again!!

2007-08-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

hahaha!! hm... i have decided. FINALLY. you are no longer alive. you are dead. you just died and you will never be reborn. stay mum forever. if you talk, i'll go deaf. if you show up, i'll go blind.

so say it again, say "FEEL FREE TO DO AS YOU LIKE"... and i will laugh. laugh at your stupid insensitivity.

testing the wi-fi thing...

2007-07-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

i'm here at gloria jeans, RP ermita... it's boring. gah...

i'm actually testing the wi-fi thing of this laptop cos i realized i have to update the anti-virus cos every freaking thing in manila has virus. and i don't wanna infect this month-old lovely.

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our relationship's on the rocks... don't know if it'll ever be the same. might not.

--
transformers' awesome.. i felt like a kid again, getting amazed at the robots and how they transform... and their stance!!! their poses were glorious. especially Optimus Prime's... XD

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next stop, HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF PHOENIX!!! i wanna see ron weasley. and helena b.. carter.. SHE IS SCARRRRYYYYY~~~

gawd, i'm so bored. help.

help me win!!

2007-07-01T17:29:00.000+08:00

guys, help me win... please click the banner and follow the instructions. thanks! mwah!

http://www.hanson.net/site/hanson/link/1/88633

pasalubong!

2007-06-07T11:36:00.000+08:00

i was home alone yesterday from 9 am till 11:30 pm, doing nothing but watch Otome wa Boku ni Koishiteru at youtube. Then when my parents got home, they gave me a Compaq Presario laptop with a printer and a free ipod shuffle! The ipod thing will belong to my sister though cos I already have a Muvo mp3 player which is enough for me. :)

idol.

2007-05-29T20:08:00.000+08:00

I don't know why Adeth's parents were interviewed today at the Radio Veritas but i think it had something to do with their family. And one answer from the Q&A portion struck me.

Radio DJ: Hindi po ba kayo nagalit sa Diyos dahil sa mga dinadanas ng asawa n'yo at ng buo n'yong pamilya? (or something like that..)

Mem (Det's father): Hindi ho.

RDJ: Bakit po hindi?

Mem: Kung magagalit ako sa Diyos, sino pang lalapitan ko?

...astig.

Tipong pa-deep.

2007-05-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

"In the Gospel according to Luke, there is a moment when an important man approaches Jesus and asks: 'Good Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?' And to our surprise, Jesus responds: 'Why callest thou me good? None is good, save one, that is God.'" - The Devil and Miss Prym, Paulo Coelho

What could be his message? St. Thomas Aquinas, in his Summa Theologica, claims that Man is essentially good for there are virtues which come from the Natural Law which conforms to the nature of man. However, he also said that the law of nature may be blotted out "in the case of a particular action, in so far as reason is hindered from applying the general principle to a particular point of practice, on account of concupiscence or some other passion".

So therefore, although man is inclined to good, this inclination is imperfect as it may be corrupted by vices and passion.

This is the reason why Man needs laws. According to the Summa, there are men who are virtuous, and men who are not. Those who are no longer need laws because admonitions can already tame their actions. While those who are vicious need laws that make use of the fear of punishment in order that these vicious men obey, which in effect lead them to being good.

So if I may ask, are those virtuous men essentially virtuous or are they only afraid of punishment that they act virtuous? I think the positive answer belongs to my second question.

But I wonder, if people release their desire to do something evil, would it stop already? Would a moment of sacrifice to destroy the things that are familiar save the future of those things that will become familiar soon? Could a rebuilding be easier than preservation?

safe and sound.

2007-05-26T13:35:00.000+08:00

I've seen my grades. i'm out of danger. Thank God.

Legal Writing - 2.25
Roman law and Philosophy - 2
Labor Standards - 3 << My finals did a nose dive. But still.. *smiles widely*
Constitutional Law - 2.25
Criminal Law 2 - 3. << it wasn't really mathematically impossible but still, Thank God.

(I received a text message from Ritchel yesterday saying that grades were already available at the kiosks located in the main building so I immediately took a bath and sent forth from the province to Manila to check it out. yeah... to relieve the anxiety.)

paranoia.

2007-05-19T11:53:00.000+08:00

i deleted the most recent entry about some girl. it was a faux pas. i decided never to interfere, never to say anything about anyone, never to make a comment about whatever. i decided to keep quiet, feel nothing, be indifferent.

i'm trying to regain the trust i might have never had from the beginning. you see, i was brought up in an environment where people never liked me. Back in gradeschool, people always left me behind because i was like this and like that. In highschool, people usually didn't want to be seen talking to me because i was considered a loser, coming from an entirely different environment than those coming from exclusive subdivisions... But those people, they were all nice to me... then they'd lose their masks and show their skin as soon as i turned my back.

so you see, i have always been paranoid. i might be having the wrong impression on people but that's how i see the world. so if i say anything wrong, if i believe in something that's wrong or false or if i believe in an illusion and i revolve my world around it, then maybe you have to do something else than just telling me your truth. because it's very hard for me to believe in things that seemed false.

so there, i apologize cos it was me who was wrong from the beginning. and i apologize for not believing in you. i apologize for many things, but probably it's better that i'd rather stay quiet and be indifferent.

dsl-ing.

2007-05-17T17:11:00.000+08:00

i'm enjoying this newly-attached PLDT DSL thing in our computer.

we can now watch stuff on youtube and yeah... the first thing i searched was TAKING THE WALK.

finally. i can know what's going on.

::sigh::

2007-05-16T13:52:00.000+08:00

for the past four or five days, i've been confused about feelings and people.

until now i still think of whether i should go on or not..

yesterday, i was sitting by the terrace, my feet hanging over the garage. the wind was carefree, blowing my hair and trying to calm my aching heart. i looked up to the sky and recalled a dream that i had before. in that dream, i was walking in a long corridor with white walls and some doors on the side. i went in one of the doors after walking down that corridor. as soon as i entered, i had this very light feeling, like i was flying and all i could see were white, flimsy things but i didn't know what they were. it was a vast blue space with all those white, flimsy things hanging around. but i realized that i was alone, though happy because i felt so light. i guess i was afraid to be alone so i went out of the room, back to the long corridor, and back to the burdensome feeling. then i woke up.

yesterday, while i was looking up to the sky, with its vast blue space and thin, white clouds, i thought that maybe if i didn't go out of that room and stayed a little while longer, i would have been happy.

and as the wind blew, i looked down on the ground and was tempted to try to fly, though i know i would fall. then maybe... just maybe... i'd be happier.

===
do you really think we no longer have any place to go so we'd just have to stop? maybe it was my fault in the very beginning, when four years ago, i entertained these feelings and dragged you into it. but then, like Satou Sei said, wouldn't it be sad if you had to ignore love just because you know at some point you have to let go?

she said meeting and parting comes as a set. when there's hello, there's always a goodbye. are we going to take the natural course of life and say goodbye because our hello might have already come to its end?

seour system...

2007-05-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

Oyuki Konno's Maria-sama ga miteru (the anime) reminds me of highschool. The Lillian School for Young Ladies is a Catholic exclusive school for girls, just like Assumption Antipolo. Lillian uses a Seour System which matches two students, one older than the other, to guide the latter during her 3-years stay in the school. They call them seours or "sisters" in French. Although in AA, we only have a week of Kapatiran, but we still have "sisters". They match senior students to freshmen so there's really a big gap in between.. My Kapatiran sister, Patty F., well... she's nice but the relationship was very awkward and it ended just the same when the Kapatiran week ended. I was a transfer student, she's a CAT officer and quite popular with the other popular kids. We just didn't jive well. Unlike in MariMite, the seours have very close relationships with each other and they treat each other like their real sisters...

My fave character is Satou Sei... because she's not a typical Lillian girl. ^^

WARNING: bad for your health

2007-05-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

hay nako. punyetation naman...

mukhang walang plano ang HANSON na i-release ang album nilang THE WALK dito sa Pinas. samantalang sa Japan, February na-release. >_>

pano naman kase...

nung nag-concert sila dito, may bad write up sila sa Inquirer dahil ill-treated daw yung isang reporter or whoever dahil may nangyari nung ayaw na magpa-interview ng Hanson or ayaw
magpapicture before or after the concert yata... EH HELLLOOOOOOO~~~~!!! malamang kung nangungulit ka, masusupalpal ka talaga ng dala mong camera noh!?

tapos naman... ang laki laki nung venue ng concert eh sus naman... half or more than half lang yung napuno. NASAN NA YUNG LOYAL FANS NG HANSON!? andami daming kasapi ng PHOFC at HOFF!!!!!! asan na kayo!?

SONY MUSIC, BAKIT WALANG RELEASE DATE ANG THE WALK SA PINAS!?!

sarap sakalin nung writer na'yun. hindi naman kailangan pang isulat... tsaka ANO NAMAN!? Diyos ba ang Hanson at wala nang karapatang magalit!? yan ang hirap sa mga tao eh. kapag
"nabastos" kahit sila ang may kasalanan, pangit na ugali. pero kapag naging mabait sa kanila at alam naman nilang pagtalikod eh mag-a-alcohol ng kamay, pupurihin pa rin. ayaw n'yo ng mga
totoong tao.

- rant ng isang Hanson fan.
"I'm for the music, not for the cutesy faces of people I don't even know."

updating the look

2007-05-10T09:26:00.000+08:00

wala lang... had my unnoticeable haircut yesterday so i'm posting some new pix.. look how FAT i am now. T___T i'm trimming my weight again cos I went up from 102 lbs to 110 lbs. can you believe that!? T___T lotsa pimples are also appearing on my cheeks and forehead and i don't know what to apply anymore. T___T

The week that was.

2007-05-08T18:15:00.000+08:00

I just got back from Alfonso, Cavite/Tagaytay last Sunday. I was there with Adeth from May 3 to May 6 and we had fuuuuuuuun~~ ^^

May 2:
+ Adeth slept over at our house. We dropped by at my dorm first cos my sister and her bestfriend, Kay, transferred from their old dorm (which management is very ill-mannered) to my room so I'd be sharing the room with them starting June. :D

May 3:
+ We left at around 10:30 am and caught the Crow Transport Bus around 12 nn and without having lunch, travelled from Manila to Alfonso, Cavite. We got really hungry and all we had were 3 pieces of Monde's Cheesecake.
+ We stayed at the Sunrise Mansion Hotel and got rooms 218 and 220. It was like a small house, with one bedroom and two bathrooms (with bathtubs~~), a kitchen, a dining table lit by a
small chandeliere, and a loveseat by the window. There were no dividers actually, but you could see where's where by the muebles. ^^
+ We arrived there around 3:30, settled our things before grabbing lunch at the Bistro Restaurant in the hotel, near the swimming pool (which was a little deep cos i couldn't reach the
pool tile without losing my breath).
+ After lunch, we went back to Tagaytay and bought some stuff at Mercury Drug, bought two eggs (yey~) and a pair of slippers.

May 4:
+ We went to Dencio's Tagaytay and had Sisig (yum!) and Inihaw na Blue Marlin which is actually my favorite.. for the price of 780 pesos. ::gah::
+ We went to the Mini-zoo and enjoyed taking pictures of animals (although we had a petty fight along the way, ehehe). Det said I was very good at talking with the animals.. I might have the animal pheromone like Ruka Nogi. ^^ Det bought me a stuffed sheep which I named "Tupa". (Kay's remark: How creative.)
+ We went back to the hotel and I spent some minutes at the swimming pool while Det sat at the edge.

May 5:
+ I had Det convinced to go swimming with me. She said she doesn't enjoy stuff like that BUT she went out of the water laughing. We raced back and forth (on the shallow part of the pool) rabbit-slash-kangaroo-hopping (since Det can't swim) and had our asses laughing. She looked really cute hopping on the water like that. wahahaha~
+ In the afternoon, we went as far as SM Dasmarinas cos Det wanted some real meal (like KFC fried chicken >_<) and I wanted to see if Hanson's new album TAKING THE WALK is already out.. I was too sleepy that time so I was in a bad mood... ehehe. and the bus was really slow. ::bah::

May 6:
Well, we prepared to leave. Det cooked our breakfast and lunch while I fixed our things, clothes, etc, up. Adeth wanted to catch the primer for the De La Hoya - Mayweather boxing match so we ate at the table near the bed cos that's where the TV was. We checked out from the hotel around 10:40 and travelled back to Manila a few minutes later.

It was a very nice experience cos I got to cook our own meal, cook rice, prepared the table, and wash the dishes while Adeth watched tv in the bedroom most of the time. ^^

(But then, everytime I became idle, I would think about my status in Labor Standards and Criminal law 2 but most especially in Labor Standards... I am really worried and I still have to wait till May 31 to know the real deal.)

PS: I'm not using this number anymore: 0921-5150224. You can reach me at: EMAIL ME TO GET MY NUMBER, HA? >> kawaii_shoujo03@yahoo.com

finito~

2007-04-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

hwehehe. i had already finished reading persons and the family code. URESHI~!! kaso.. naubusan na ako ng anime dvds. Tactics na lang ang nandito na ndi ko pa napapanood... pero kasi naman... Tactics. kabadingan. hahah! PEACE, M-chan.

Yun.. gusto ko ng Maria-sama ga miteru kasi ang meron lang ako, Spring. eh... gusto ko madami~~~ at wala akong panahong bumili. T__T

bahd.

anyway.. i need to practice Etude and Minuet 2. Minuet 2 is a lot harder than the first, gawd. My left ring finger has blisters on its tip. T__T

i was actually trying to write a Card Captor Sakura fanfic in connection with the Create Card and the Book with no name. and again, it's a love-drama-tragedy thing but i still couldn't finish it... but i'm half-way there.. no, not really. it's actually between the intro and the rising action.. but... i can't continue anymore!! it's like a writer's block but i have the plot in my head, i just can't write it!

speaking of CCS, i've finished the whole series and i wasn't exactly happy with the ending because... well, it's quite different from the one in the manga.. I wanted to see Li-kun all grown up. myehehe...

Oh Yue...

==
"From now on, you're just someone that I used to love..." I heard the song earlier when my mother sang it in the videoke. hweheh... so there...... from now on, you're just someone that I used to love.

HAHAHA << evil laugh.

delayed emotions

2007-04-26T14:27:00.000+08:00

+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong hindi marunong tumanggap ng pagkakamali pero mahilig pumuna sa mali ng iba.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong masakit magsalita dahil sa pag-aakalang matututo ang tao sa ganong paraan.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong hindi mo mapagsalitaan ng masama kahit gaano na kasama ang loob mo.
+ nakakapagod ang pagrespeto sa taong hindi marunong rumespeto sa ibang tao.
+ nakakapagod makipagtalo sa taong hindi marunong tumanggap ng pagkatalo.
+ nakakapagod makinig sa taong paulit-ulit ang sinasabi.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong hindi sensitibo sa pangangailangan ng mga tao sa paligid n'ya.
+ nakakapagod tumingin sa taong hindi mo mapatawad.
+ nakakapagod magmahal ng taong hindi mo mapatawad.
+ nakakapagod makisama sa taong pagod ka nang mahalin.

ne, kung guilty ka, magbago ka na. kung ndi ka tinatamaan, wag mong pansinin.

Homicide.

2007-04-17T21:21:00.000+08:00

Stitch had just killed a kitten. She bit the kitten's neck which probably caused its death. We couldn't do anything anymore except to watch the kitten take a few more heavy, deep breaths before it passed away.

I slapped Stitch twice but that was all I could do, after all, she is a dog and has less mental faculties than man has. ::sigh:: I hope the kitten will forgive her and us, humans, too.

==
anyway, i cleaned my desk and started seriously with Persons. I don't want to deal anymore with "animosity" (as popo called it yesterday) in the family whenever the topic is brought up. Popo wants me to take the best shot at Persons next sem, as if it would bring about anything. I already have a failed subject so no matter how much I persevere to get the highest grade possible, I can no longer get into the Dean's list or graduate with honors. It is written in the handbook.

I also started with violin self-study this morning after I got my mp3 player from my sister yesterday. I had been practicing 13 songs since vacation started because I couldn't start with the 14th song in the songbook. I needed the mp3 player for that.

==
::sigh:: I miss Pepe. It's been almost three weeks since we last saw each other. But we talk whenever we get the time so it's still ok..

==
I wrote a short story this morning. :) I inserted a few lines from some poems I read in the compilation for Ms. Maningning Miclat. I hope she's attained happiness wherever she is.

maaahhhh

2007-04-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sa aking pag iisa
Di maiwasang maalala ka
tamis ng iyong halik, paulit-ulit na nagbabalik
at nasasabik pag iniisip ka sa pag iisa

sa aking pagiisa,
ang yakap mo ay hanap hanap pa
haplos ng iyong kamay ay pilit ko paring ginagaya
habang hawak k0 ang larawan m0 at nagiisa

kung magkikita tayong muli,
hindi k0 na ikukublina nais madama muli ang iyong pagibig,
kahit sandali
ibigin mo ako ngayon at bukas ay iwanan mo ak0
ng bagong alaala sa aking pag iisa

===
wala lang...

I wanna have a copy of Gerald Levert's Closure song... that "can't get you out of my system" song... ^^

kainis

2007-04-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

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mahabang kwento

2007-04-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

hm. nagpunta ako sa doctor kanina. ipapa - 2D Echo daw ako.

ayoko sana magpaganun and other lab tests like blood chem and urinalysis kasi dagdag gastos na naman, hindi naman importante.

minsan ayoko na lang mag-complain kapag may masakit sa'kin para wala nang mag-aalala, wala nang gagastos, etc.

oh well...

nung pauwi na kami, tumirik yung dala naming sasakyan sa highway ng Cardona, Rizal. hahaha!! nawalan ng gas. kaya minabuti na naming tawagan si Popo para tulungan kami...

just imagine, sunset, nasa highway kami pero ang nasa kanan namin ay bundok, nasa kaliwa ay bangin... at andun kami, si mama, ang lola ko, at ako. tatlong babae, isang nakatirik na sasakyan, at sangkatutak na trak ang dumadaan...

at pagdating ni Popo, tumatawa s'ya. nakaka-relieve na for once, nagkaproblema at hindi nagalit si Popo... natural high yon para sa'kin. rare experience... :)

oh well...

natapos ko na ang Princess Hours.. natawa ako sa ibang parts, naluha ako sa iba... pero naisip ko lang:

kung nasasaktan ka dahil hindi alam ng taong nagmamahal sa'yo na mahal mo din s'ya, bakit hindi mo pa sabihin kung alam mo din naman na ikaw din ang makakapagpasaya sa kanya? Anong nakakatakot dun?

oh well...

may hana yori dango na pala sa GMA. kelan ang simula? ayaw ipapanood sa'kin ni Det yun eh, dahil si Matsumoto Jun ang bida. >_> sa-shotgunin daw n'ya yung TV namin. hahahaha!!

dati, nag-away pa kami at almost nagbreak (o nagbreak nga?) dahil hindi ko sinabi sa kanya na bumili ako ng Gokusen... ayaw n'ya talagang ipapanood sa'kin yun dahil kay Matsumoto.. at dahil dun sa isang character na blonde ang kulay ng buhok. Autistic daw kasi sila...

ayun lang... hahaha.. ^^ PICTURE PICTURE! (highschool barkada at Karate Kid, Eastwood. Before Aissa left for UAE.)

boredom can kill oh yeah oh yeah

2007-04-09T16:15:00.000+08:00

alam n'yo kung anong mahirap pag bakasyon? ...yung wala ka nang magawa, mamamatay ka na sa boredom. yun.

kaya eto, pic na lang... dalawang pusa sa bahay: Misono and Kuruken

happy? sad? basta bakasyon na.

2007-04-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

Bakasyon na~ yey! Time for rest and … of course, occasional studying. XD I have to review my Persons cos I’m gonna retake it next sem.

Anyway, to start off my vacation, Det slept in my dorm the night after the last exam (which is scarier than I expected. Waah) then I went home the next day. I got to see my cat, Misono, ... sa wakas.

Some of my classmates and I went swimming last March 28. It was fun and the scenery was really breathtaking. The resort was atop a mountain and we could see Laguna on the other side of the Laguna Bay. Sayang, halos lahat ng ka-close ko ndi nakasama. Like Mi-chan, Claire, and some of my Kada. Andun lang si Ate Shiela and Marian, and of course my guy friends Hadjie and Ritchel. :D

Tapos I discovered something… hahaha! No, actually, Ritchel told me. It wasn’t really a discovery. XD

My newest addiction (kahit na huling huli na ako...) Meteor Garden!

Tapos, ngayon, April 3… we floated last night. No, actually, the 4 years we had ended last night. It was revived, sure, but… oh well. I don’t know… if you’re hurting the person you love, would you leave her just because of that? Aren’t you going to do something to change everything that hurts? Like the song, “Don’t wanna try” … It goes like “Don’t wanna try no more cos what’s the use of holding on when all we do is hurt our love.” It’s really sad… and painful. I mean, just because you think there are lots of cats who are after your gurl, you’re just gonna stop? Come on. That’s not fair. The gurl didn’t ask for them. Or if she did, would it hurt if she’s not entertaining them? Nahh…

I’m not in the mood to write actually, kaya my sentences are choppy and taglish. Maahhhh … sensha na. Harhar

hehe

2007-03-07T15:41:00.000+08:00

tan****... ano bang magandang anti-virus dyan.
pero picture muna. ...

Owen, Fay, Jam, Marian, Claire

nabuhay...

2007-03-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

i don't know when my last post was, but to update everybody... (well, those interested enough to read stuff about me ^^) here's news:

+ I had withdrawal from reading Recca no honou.. i had to know the ending. good thing i managed to get a few time off from school (like two hours everyday) to read the manga. ^^ Now i don't see Yanagi as week anymore. :)
+ we just celebrated our four-year anniversary yesterday.. er.. last night. ureshi~
+ finals week on March 19... sobrang kapal ng coverage every subject and i'm still hoping na hindi cover to cover and scope.. ahhh.... I HAVE TO MAKE IT!!!
+ Det's leaving for Davao on the 11th.. we won't be able to see each other for two weeks cos the week she comes back will be my final exams week. :( i can't see her, or else... i don't wanna risk it again. and after finals, i'll be going home.. but we'll manage. :p
+ We have a new kitten. His name's kuru-ken. ^^
+ lastly, i'm sick with colds. my body's become weaker since the start of the school year.. must be cos i always stay up late.. although most days i still get to have at least 7 hours of sleep, it's still really tiring especially if you have to read 100 to 300 pages of matters relating to your course a day.. it's baaahd. But i'm happy. :)

anyway, greetings and advance greetings:
HAPPY BIRTHDAYS to:
- Uncle Bong, March 4.
- Besty Karl, March 9
- *angel*, March 11

and saying Hi to:
- Det
- My cat, Misono
- Classmates from college especially Ria, Brent, Kuya Art, Meri, Kaiz, Daisy, Kuya Chris, Tristan, Abi, Liz, Jessa, Ned and Kuya Jhobz.. Miss ko na kayo..
- Mi-chan, Ate Shie, Marsh, Hadjie-kun, Your honor (Mac), Dje-adik, and classmates from 1A.
- GP, miss na din kita..
- My friends from highschool: Patty (you referred me to some fitness thing... how dare you!? *glomps*), Ynna, Keij, Ice (how's the FA job?), Teacher Toni .. :) miss you guys..

...oh well, i'm looking forward to summer. gotta get some rest and relaxation.. LET ME SWIM~~~ i'm missing water so much... gotta get into shape to fit into that fiery orange two-piece swimsuit that Det doesn't want me to wear when she isn't around.. ngyahahaha~

maa~ this maybe the last post before i go into hiding again. you wanna talk to me, contact me. you know my numbers. :D i'll be in my room, reading.

ja...

english trans: MOVE ON by Bi

2007-01-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

Move On translation by: Cho (also credit: aheeyah.com)
When are you going to stop crying
As you wait for someone who isn’t going to come, closing your heart firmly
Why won’t you see me
I’m waiting for you, who is waiting for him

Move on move on You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now,
I’ll do it I will always be right by your side I won’t leave you like that person did

My heart that’s seeing you like this
Is hurting the same way yours is because of that person
My gaze that is watching you
Is the same as your gaze that looks at the seat that person left

Move on move on You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now,
I’ll do it I will always be right by your side I won’t leave you like that person did

Turn around and look at me now, give me a chance too
The scar that person left I’ll take it upon myself, making up for it forever by your side
So give me a chance

haah. tinatamad mag-post.

2007-01-21T09:46:00.000+08:00

prelims week last week... plus on the consti and romphil exam. crim is so so ... tomorrow, labor exam. praying to pass all the exam..

my mom bought me Eternal Rain, Bi's new CD. yey-ness~!

i so like MOVE ON.. gweehee!

pictures ng magaganda.

2006-12-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

(eto si Jac.)

(eto si Amae.)

Got their pics from their friendster accounts... o diba? gaganda ng tropa ko noh!? XD

not for the faint-hearted, esp. DET

2006-12-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

at last, i got to finish reading Crimes against Property. My nose almost bled with Article 315 (Swindling/Estafa) cos of the many jargons regarding money and transaction. I encountered lots of words I never read before... gah.

I have yet to read Crimes against chastity which is only 60 pages as compared to 300 pages of Crimes against property. The whole thing on chastity is only the whole of Article 315. >_>;;

more nose bleed.

==
i soooo dislike people who act as if they are always victims of other people. come on.

==
She is wondering why i always bring up the issues regarding her friends. She once asked me if i dislike her friends. I don't. Not really. But heck, i told her that it has always seemed to me that she enjoys their company more than mine. How could i say that?

simple:

1. everytime we are together, she mentions them. It would be fine if it is really indispensable that she mentions their names, but no... they are not necessarily included in her stories. She said she was only telling me things about her work because i said i wanted updates. She says this girl is like this. this girl does stuff like this. this girl loves to eat this. this girl looks like this actress. I MEAN, WOAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! Those were NOT updates, those were raves about people i don't even have to care about! those were not even about her work, those were about her co-workers. -__-

2. why do i always bring up this issue: "when you have to go to places with them, you immediately ask for permission. when you have to go to places with me, or go to MY place, you don't even DARE to ask for permission."

it's because it seems to me that she can easily make efforts to go to that whatever thing she has with her friends no matter what her parents' decisions may be. I mean, she barely knows those people and yet she has the courage to ask for permission to go to places like LAGUNA and DAVAO... but to my place which is only 2 to 3 hours from her place, or even to my dorm which is only an HOUR away from her house, TO ME, WHO HAVE MET HER PARENTS MORE THAN FIVE TIMES, TO ME, WHO HAVE GONE TO THEIR HOUSE MORE THAN FIVE TIMES EVERY YEAR FOR 5 YEARS... Gah, she can't even try to seek their permission.

and even it's not about asking for permission, she can actually wake up two or three hours earlier, to go to malls with her friends, to glorietta or to whatever places i dare not ask, although she claims to be tired having up the whole night but when she has to go to my place, she has to complete like 5 to 6 hours of sleep no matter what. It doesn't matter to her if i have to attend a 5 pm class. She just have to complete sleep until maybe 3:30 pm, prepare for work then go to my dorm 30 minutes before my class. That the only thing we could do was walk from my dorm to the Main Building and off she goes to work... happily of course cos she will mingle with her oh-so-cool friends.

Do you think it would convince me that she really wants to be with me?

there are other things i don't want to mention here. those were too cruel but true. but hey, she told me before that it was always her who made an effort to meet my demands. (demands - time, to be exact) ... if only i could tell her about that time we watched Lake House... how much it negatively affected my entire life.

i may be jealous of her new-found friends.. heck. i so have the right. damnit.

It's gravitation~

2006-12-22T18:27:00.000+08:00

Aim for the loophole in this shy, trembling society,
for the place we keep struggling towards. I want new world.
- The Rage Beat (English Translation)
Gravitation

Four years ago, night of December 22, somebody confessed. We only talked through text messaging but it was so nice I could not sleep. I thought she was not serious, I actually expected that she was not serious. Because I didn’t realize that she was feeling the same way. I thought I was the only one reeling in that kind of emotion…

“I love you.
I love you too.
Yey! Sinagot mo na’ko! Mark the date! Sa Saturday, 1 month na kami ni Maan.
Hindi ka naman seryoso ehh, matulog ka na.
Pa’no mo nasabing hindi ako seryoso?”

She seemed like she was kidding, didn’t she? Maan - who made a joke about being in a relationship with her – we all knew it was just a joke. Mentioning her name, it didn’t seem at all that she was serious.

“one last thing… I’m serious. Kung mahal kita sa lagay na’to, pa’no kung mahal nga kita? Hindi ka ba naniniwala?”

I believed her, yes, though we didn’t really start the relationship immediately. It started three months after… and during those two months in between, I was happiest.

There was, though, a slight pinch that was trying to wake me up. It was telling me not to, it was not right.

But like a good friend said, arguing with the law of gravitation, “if we can’t control the law of gravitation, then why do we control two people gravitating towards each other?”

...uh huh... and we met the unstoppable force that we have to move.

the evil one.

2006-12-21T18:06:00.000+08:00

vacation officially starts now...but a lot of school work piled up so i still don't have a break from school. darn.

ever had these feelings:

+ you're not doing anything good to yourself

+ you're not making extra effort in achieving your goals

+ you're not being able to please your family and friends

+ you're being sinful

+ you're wanting to get out of something that you really don't want to get out of

+ you're wanting to blame others but it is really you who has to be blamed

+ you're being jealous of people... her friends. O_O just because she seems to have more fun with them than with you... and for other reasons.

waah... christmas jitters.

i neeeeeeeed a gameboy.

at 21~

2006-12-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

Added favorite movie.. Imagine me & you starred by Matthew Goode, Piper Perabo and Lena Heady. It's about two women who, upon meeting each other in one of them's wedding, fell in love at first glance when they "immediately saw each other's soul in their eyes."

Belated Happy birthday to me! I'm already 21 years old!!

Happy birthday to Iyah. ^^

malaking hayop.

2006-12-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

oo, s'ya. isa s'yang malaking hayop. isang puntos na lang, regular na'ko.

==
nagpunta kami ni det sa UP AME Matsuri kanina. At nagtitili ako kay Shindou Shuici at Yuki Eiri.. XD kasi naman~~~ Yuri hugged him from behind then kissed him. O_O waahhh ...

Jam. << nahawahan ni M-chan sa shonen ai. specifically: gravi. XD

nakita ko rin si Eri, M-chan's ran. at ndi sya ngumiti..scary. ~_~
==
wala akong masabi. may 3-year itch ba ako? wala siguro... demo...

==
happy birthday kay Kristel. ^^

yehey!

2006-12-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

meron na 'kong blog! hehe. link me: malayangbituin.blogspot.com

kaso di pa polished. help, cho?

you're a friend, dude.

2006-12-09T16:50:00.000+08:00

to be subtly told that you are not "liked". wow.

here i am, having enough guts to befriend someone i like, thinking that maybe i can be, someday, interesting enough to be.. whatever.

but no.

i'm a friend, dude. yup. always a friend, or a fling maybe, but not someone for keeps.

wow.

===================================
just came from lambac, cardona, rizal, talim island. wonderful place. small baranggay, but clean. friendly people. wonderful birds. had fun standing on the big banca, or whatever you call that.

===================================
really sad about the guy. huhu. ayoko na. fine. i'll settle for annoying guys who don't have something inside. may mukha nga, pero walang utak or walang personality. i will be one of the stereotypes, settling for the good physical attributes rather than what's inside.

sourgraping.

====================================
hello, cho. someone design me my own blog. i keep on invading my sister's. cho? wanna make one for me? hehe. (tamad ako. bow.)

My turn to rant

2006-11-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

I got a 79 on my Persons final exam. It's 40% of the final grade. if i'm going to compute, my prelim exam would be 21 and my final exam would be 31.6 ...to add them would be 52.6 and assuming that my class standing is 25, total would be is 77.6.. i passed.

but rocky said the silent assassin passed only those who made it in the prelim exam which is only 35% of the total grade, disregarding the 40% final exam.

kuso.

oh well~ biyayaan sana ako ng sipag at tiyaga...

==
i already told ee-chan that i couldn't like him the way he wants me to, ...not because of _._._ but because i really find it better if we're just going to stay as friends. ee-chan is a nice, sweet person.. and i'm flattered that he likes me, pero ...maa~ gomen, ee-chan. *bows*

==
Hero TV has a convention today and tomorrow at the World Trade Center, posters of it are scattered on UST bulletin boards everywhere inside the campus.

and Animax fashion ability contest is being held at glorietta today too...

and i can't go to both. :( maa~

==
Napapagod na'ko sa inyo, pasensya na. pero.. i wish you luck.

==
Happy Birthday to Eri, Nee-chan's ran.

THIS IS A RANT: sa lahat ng ganid at inflexible na nilalang sa mundo

2006-11-09T17:20:00.000+08:00

Hello, Jam. I need to rant.

I and my roommate got delayed in paying for rent and were charged (each) 375 for penalty. FOR A DAY'S DELAY. Not deliberately, mind you, but only because we were DUTY on the day we were supposed to pay rent (we were supposed to pay on the 6th) and were not at the dorm the days prior (we went home that weekend because it was ma's bday).

We paid immediately after the 6th --meaning the 7th-- but to no avail. We said we were duty, but they said we should have paid the days prior. HELLO! One day late! And not deliberately!

You slytherin of people, thinking only of YOUR greater good. And, AND! The month of October, they also made Kay pay penalty, because they refused to accept a check paid to cash (which was as good as cash, hello!) even if it was explained that the owner of the check was not in the country anymore! And we had no immediate access to money at the moment!! How greedy and inflexible is that?! Kasi daw nasa dorm rules.

SLYTHERINS!

Will anyone answer me please. Is it allowed to issue only provisional receipts in dorms like these? Talagang ganun lang, walang official receipt? When are official receipts required?

AND! AND they made my sister (MY sister!) go back to her dorm at TEN in the evening! Hello, iyon po ay nasa may Dapitan at eto po ay nasa Taft. Masarap talagang saksakin. It's not like she's not family!! Powtah talaga!

TAPOS makikita mo yung ibang dormer na nagpapapasok sa KUWARTO nila ng mga LALAKE (nakakatawa kung kapatid nila yun, because they seem to be pretty cozy for siblings...)

SLYTHERINS!!!

To my new friends, 1A

2006-11-02T13:24:00.000+08:00

Meron na palang hindi mag-eenroll sa second sem.. Well, goodbye for now. But I am sure we will all meet each other some time... if the time is right.
For those who didn't make it well enough, like me, well.. I could share this with you. Djerovin sent me this:

"A man tried to reach the top of the mountain and failed. After a year, he decided to make another attempt. Discouraged by his critics, he said, "after a year, i have grown stronger. But that mountain did not grow any taller. It is bound to bow down to me."

People, we don't have to be perfect all the time. Improvement has no limit. Our best doesn't have to be at this time, at this age. When we look upon ourselves, we might be able to see that something from this experience gave us a tinge of hope, and that hope makes us alive. All we have to do is look.

hay nako.

2006-10-31T11:38:00.000+08:00

Maa ne.. you get some, you lose some.

::sigh:: what could i do, ne? nothing. what could my grade be? how come i couldn't enroll oblicon..? there are so many questions that are yet to be answered. i'm wondering if i can have the answers to them all.

but surprisingly, everyone was ok with that. they were all telling me to go on, not to look backwards but forward, ...

i guess i am ok because they are ok. and i realized, i am doing this because i want to please them.
would there be a difference if i do it not because of them but because of myself? if so, would that difference be a positive or a negative one?

i wonder... maybe.. the negative. because i can be easily contented and others cannot. so whatever i do, no matter how they say that i am a perfectionist, if i think that what i did was already the best, then that's it. and my best is always not the best for them.

for some reason.

::sigh::
===
Ee-chan and I met yesterday at SM Manila. It was fun. And I'm sorry that we did even if you objected.

i'm sure you know it was all innocent fun.

and i'm sorry if you saw a text message from that someone you despise in my inbox. it doesn't mean anything.

because i love you.

writer's block

2006-10-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

shimatta.

i wanted to write a tagalog short fiction but i couldn't find the words to use.. this isn't supposed to happen..not when i already have the plot inside my head.

argh.

then i wanted to write in english but... the moment ran away. kuso.

maa.. guess i have to wait for another chance, ne?

==

yesterday's judgment day was moved to October 30, Monday.. waiting isn't over and the final sigh has yet to come..

it must be a sigh of relief and not of anguish!

gambatte!!!!

==

Ee-chan and I are planning to meet each other on Monday..^_^

I already told Pe that.. ^^

dweh part 2

2006-10-25T18:26:00.000+08:00

You Are: 30% Dog, 70% Cat

You and cats have a lot in common. You're both smart and in charge - with a good amount of attitude.However, you do have a very playful side that occasionally comes
out!

http://www.blogthings.com/

other quizzes said i am: 60% weird; 68% proud; and 64% intuitive.

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which temperament are you? choleric temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

===
Your EQ is 133

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

dweh.

2006-10-25T12:34:00.000+08:00

Your Personality Is
Rational (NT)

You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

>>the 3-question personality test at www.blogthings.com<<

--- i think, though, that statement about fashion is not really true when it comes to me. i like fashion and i don't think it is silly. i think it is art and self-expression. the rest, i think, is correct.

other quizzes said that i am 48% obsessive; 64% lusty; 40% normal; 44% paranoid schizophrenic
and that my aura is blue

sleeping in despair

2006-10-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

*jam and her other self, nyaha, were talking:

jam: if you were sleeping beauty who was dreaming of paradise, would you want your prince to kiss you and wake you up?

nyaha: of course.

jam: why?

nyaha: because my dreams can come true when i am awake.

jam: what if they don't?

nyaha: then it is only a nightmare and my prince would have to wake me up again.

jam: what if your prince gets tired of waking you up everytime your paradise don't come true?

nyaha: then he is not the prince for me.

jam: and who is the prince for you? someone who would still wake you up even if he had gotten tired of doing so?

nyaha: yes.

jam: is that not slavery?

nyaha: no. because he's going to do it with love.

jam: love you said, what is this love anyway?

nyaha: ...i don't know.

**long silence**

jam: so ...would you rather continue dreaming paradise or stay awake and risk?

nyaha: *sigh* i don't know..

===
jam: would you rather miss somebody and get hurt or not miss somebody and feel nothing?

nyaha: well, i am always hurting, am i not? so i guess i'd rather choose not to miss somebody. then it could make a difference.

nyaha: how about you?

jam: i guess i'll choose to miss somebody and get hurt.

nyaha: why?

jam: cos when i hurt, it means i love.

nyaha: so this love... it means pain?

jam: i guess so...

nyaha: and you still want it?

jam: yes.

nyaha: why?

jam: because it means that i am human.

nyaha: if being human means i have to get hurt, then i don't want to be human.

jam: at least you have a choice.

kitkat

2006-10-23T13:44:00.001+08:00

sembreak.

just hanging out at home. watching a few anime series.

finished episode 67 of kyo kara maoh and yet the series i bought in Quiapo is still incomplete.

finished season 1 of Gokusen jdorama... UCHI~!!!!!!!!!

waiting for rendition of judgment on the 27th.. hope it isn't corporal punishment.

==
don't know what happened to the tagboard but i am not interested in fixing it right now (although i have the time to do so...) gomen.

==
belated happy birthdays to

+ Paolo, October 10
+ Elizel, October 10
+ Fay, October 22
+ Zac Hanson, October 22,

==
Happy birthdays to

+ Amae
+ Ate Armin <<< Congrats on appearing on Mean Well, Special Screening last Oct. 21 at Megamall, Cinema 9.

belated happy birthdays to...

2006-09-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

++ Eka-san, 20, September 22++
++ Nee-chan CHO, 23, September 24++
++ Anata, DETSKIDUDELTH, 19, September 25++
++ Tomodachi-san, Marian, 21, September 27++

==
ayon.. bumagyo. tanggal ang bubong ng katapat-dorm. gumiba ang Indian mango tree sa bahay. naligo sa ulan habang naglilimas ng tubig sa 4th floor with Felix sisters. tumumba ang mga puno sa Lacson. walang pasok kahapon at ngayon. tambak pa rin ang kasong dapat basahin. Articles 15 to 70 pa rin sa Criminal Law. nag-walk out si Judge Cornejo dahil sa dalawang bungisngis sa classroom. walang kuryente kahapon.Ndi napanood ang Gokusen. tulog. P.A.N.T.S galore with Sheryll the roommate. Without signal ang Globe.

leisure? what leisure?

2006-09-16T10:09:00.000+08:00

i can only think of two advantages for landing on the top 5 Political Law preliminary exam. (1) My chance of failing became slimmer and (2) prestige. Other than those two, disadvantages. They're not pure disadvantages though, just that, I am forced to study harder now to maintain the grade. and that's even when I have a subject to lift from the slums.

Atty. Sandoval's words were scary.

"Tandaan n'yo, markado na kayo."

==
M-chan and I went home late the other night cos she told me about a lot of stuff. and they were all amazing. i can't stop thinking about my past, what i was then, and did it make an effect on me at the present.

I am pretty sure that many people will think that M-chan is weird, or her ideas and knowledge are weird, but not me. M-chan is winged.

could it be that i can find my past when it has already found me?

if you have the power to change something about yourself, will you change it?

2006-09-09T11:25:00.000+08:00

you reap what you sow eh. damn it. had some problems with one 5-unit prelim exam. damn it. hope it's the last.

have to study harder this time. no more too much confidence build-up or else, ...i don't want to be studying law in some whatever-college or university few months from now.

michelle's been topping the exams since ...what. statcon? anyway, she's ...really smart. can't believe she chose UST over UP where she came from. don't know if it's a good choice or not.
have two more exams to agonizingly wait for. damn it.

==
Det and I watched snakes on a plane last tuesday. it was so hilarious when i screamed.. cos i was the only person in the movie house who did. damn snakes. am not really scared of them before, i had one huge and long snake draped over my shoulders a year or two years ago in Tagaytay zoo and it was almost nothing to me. the scales are just icky when they move. damn snakes.

then the snakes on the movie scared me. cos the snakes there were deadly, huge and fat. and fast-moving, scaly, soft-looking blah. and i realized i got more awkward in the presence of snakes.

claire and i were walking along morayta last thursday then this freakin person held two real, moving snakes towards me and i thought my heart leaped two inches above my head.

snakes are dangerous cos they kill people and they kill each other, their own kind. reminds me of how people are.

dangerous.

==
i've already switched from Smart to Globe people. i'll be posting my new number in some yahoo!groups..

heartbreaker

2006-09-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

BARISTA! GOOD LUCK SA'YO!
==

ayaw ko munang mag-english. napupurga na'ko. english pag klase, pag recitation, pag nagbabasa. grrrrr

hay nako. nakaka-miss ang college. yung tipong aabsent ka ng walang dahilan, pagpasok mo, parang wala ka lang na-miss na lecture. nakaka-miss din yung tipong bago mag-klase, manonood ka lang ng sine tapos pagpasok mo sa hapon, wala lang. kahit ndi ka mag-aral, mabubuhay ka, makaka-uno ka pa rin.

dito sa sitwasyon ko, pahirapang humanap ng panahong manood ng sine. na kapag nanood ka lang, mas gugustuhin mo pang mag-absent kahit nakakulong ka lang sa dorm dahil hindi ka nakapag-review. na kahit nabasa mo na ng ilang beses ang isang 100-pages na topic sa gabing yon, ndi mo pa rin magagawang pumasok kapag nanood ka lang ng sine.

==

sa lahat ng ayaw ko.. yung nakakasakit ako ng tao. lalo na yung magtatapat ng nararamdaman, magtatanong kung anong katayuan nya sa buhay ko tapos sa akin manggagaling na hanggang dun lang yung pagtingin ko sa kanya.

bakit ganoonnnnn? ayaw ko nun dahil naramdaman ko nang ma-basted. sobrang sakit, kaya ayaw kong ganon. ayaw kong nasasaktan ang tao dahil sa akin.

si Ron, apat na taon nang nangungulit, nagtatanong, nababasted. at nakakainis dahil ayaw nyang tumigil. nakakainis ndi dahil nakukulitan na ako kundi dahil parati na lang silang nasasaktan.

and then my friend, _ _ _ _ _.

nadagdagan pa. :(

sa inyong tatlo, pasensya na. kahit ayaw kong masaktan kayo, hindi naman pwedeng pilitin ang sarili kong magustuhan din kayo.

extraordinary

2006-08-20T17:14:00.000+08:00

aha! my sister posted again! *ngasab @ cho*==.
..hmm.. nothing much to tell. again. like my life has been a routine and nothing extraordinary happens to me. ...yeah, i know, this is not a fantasy where i get sucked into a toilet bowl or... wait a second.. now that i think about it..something extraordinary happened to me last week.

my parents gave me my dream phone: SAMSUNG FLIP. hehe.. it's an SGH X-660 model, black with gray lines. :D

and, marian and I went to Quiapo last tuesday and bought DVDs. i bought Kyou Kara Maou, Gakuen Alice, and Midori no Hibi for only 420 pesos. My classmates and I are planning to go there sometime next week to buy some more CDs. EHM... i also wanna get my hands on that
Ultra Maniac series even though i can't find the time to watch them all...

i also saw Paolo last August 14. i just noticed that something out of the ordinary happens every August 14... i already posted that a year ago... khakha.

and then... pepe surprised me with a bouquet of flowers last friday! :D LOL August 18 is our ...secret.

anyway, Ate Guard paged me at 7 am, while i was still asleep, and told me that there was a delivery waiting for me downstairs. actually, the delivery boy had been waiting for me for 15 minutes cos i didn't hear ate's 1st page. >_< i was -again- tooo sleepy to care. LOL so there... i was surprised to get a bouquet. without a notice whom that came from.. but i had a feeling it was from PE.. and of course i was right. i mean, who else would give me flowers eh?

there are other stuff that happened but i don't want to type anymore... i have to finish reading Aggravating circumstances and that freaking chapter on property relations blah in the family code. HAAAA i'm getting really tired just by reading and understanding and memorizing. det and I couldn't even find the time to see each other cos she has work and i have to study. >_> myu~

sacrifice. have faith as big as a mustard seed.

guys... so weird

2006-08-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

i can't believe this freaking blogger. i have finally erased my blog because of annoyance. and so, i have invaded my sister's.

weird people in this internet place. hm.. men. or should i say boys?

some stuff i have realized (that i previously thought are only characteristic of girls)
1. they get clingy when you don't call. they call and they text, and when you don't reply, they text some more and get annoyed.
"bakit hindi ka nagtetext?"
"bakit di mo sinabing uuwi ka?"
"lalabas pa naman sana tayo..."
"eee..."

2. they pout (even if it's not obvious in their face)

3. pag iniwan mo sila sa mall dahil sa kabagalan nila (kahit alam nilang importante ang dahilan kaya ka umalis (tipong kelangan mo kasing mag-aral for oral exams at hindi naman kasi nila nilinaw na pupunta pala sila):
"san ka na?"
"dorm"
"what?!"
...
"mag-aral ka na nga d'yan!"

hahaha!!!

masama akong bata.

hello, cho. i posted again.

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during my last week at the ER (internal medicine rotation), i had two patients who died. a, i always have patients who die (ang mga pasyente sa ospital kung nasa'n ako ay halos palaging nasa bingit na ng kamatayan). i digress.

i had two patients who died. the first one, i was shocked because before the patient got transferred to the ward, she was stable and laughing with her husband. they were having a good time. she just gave birth and her child was admitted to another hospital (preemie). malaman-laman ko na lang ay patay na s'ya. wow. at bata pa siya, she was just 24 years old! just two years older than me! go figure. she died of heart failure, if i remember correctly.

the other one looked like one of my friends from med school. kaya sobrang weird ng pakiramdam ko habang minomonitor yung pasyente. i felt like i was seeing my classmate when his hypertension gets worse at mukha na s'yang may chronic passive congestion of the liver with ascites and all. (naks, feeling house, md). anyway, every time i looked at the patient's face, i got weirded out kasi nga i was seeing my friend's face. he died. at bata pa rin s'ya, 38. his wife's even younger. feeling ko tipong kasing-edad ko lang e. anyway, this person had seminoma. search n'yo na lang sa net what it means.

when i got home, i felt nothing. but it hit me after a day. i cried because i pitied them. and because i just had a falling out with that friend that the other patient looked like. hay.

o s'ya. end of pensieve. thanks for the unload. duty pa ako bukas. sa medical ICU. by the way, the other day, 3 patients died. grabe no? halos araw-araw, may namamatay sa harap namin.

if you were us, would you survive?

ja.

i'd rather....

2006-08-13T12:01:00.000+08:00

take all the prelim exams than know the results. T___T

tomorrow will be the last day of the prelims. i could only hope for the best.

Political law was the worst and most difficult. I don't know whether Atty. Sandoval was sarcastic when he told us that he could feel that we could perfect his exam.

Of course most of our professors have higher expectations on our section because they keep telling us we're the cream of the crop, being the pilot section and all.. but ::sobs:: ...

i wonder what Atty. Sandoval would feel if most of us would get lower grades than he expected.
:(

i hope i did well. if not, i don't know how i will go about getting better grades for the finals and getting a mark higher than the required QPI. If i don't get it, i'll be taking law somewhere else. Back to square 1.

kiss from a rose

2006-07-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

Kiss From A Rose
Seal

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea
You, became the light on the dark side of me
Love remains, a drug that's the high and not the pill
But did you know that when it snows
My eyes become large
And the light that you shine can't be seen?
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you, the stranger it feels yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grey
There is so much a man can tell you
So much he can say
You remain my power, my pleasure, my pain
Baby, To me, you're like a growing
Addiction that I can't deny
Won't you tell me, is that healthy, baby?
But did you know that when it snows
My eyes become large
And the light that you shine can't be seen?
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you, the stranger it feels yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grey
I've been kissed by a rose on the grey
I've been kissed by a rose on the grey
And if I should fall, will it all go away?
There is so much a man can tell you
So much he can say
You remain my power, my pleasure, my pain
Baby, To me, you're like a growing
Addiction that I can't deny
Won't you tell me, is that healthy, baby?
But did you know that when it snows
My eyes become large
And the light that you shine can't be seen?
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you, the stranger it feels yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grey
Yes, I compare you a kiss from a rose...

lyrics from: www.lyricsstyle.com
song from: batman forever

SONA

2006-07-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

President GMA's State of the Nation Address today was hopeful. as usual, but this time, she made sense.

She reported achievements not as her own but she acknowledged the local government officials and members of the house that contributed to the gradual success of the State.

Noticing some representatives and senators who did not stand after she delivered her speech, sure, they're from the opposition and they do not approve of the President's plans but they could have, at least, shown a tinge of respect. ...of course the President did not acknowledge them because she knows none of their respective accomplishments. because all they do is to fight for impeachment, which quoting the President herself.. is a waste of time.

"For those who want to pick up old fights, we're game...but what a waste of time."

and to those representatives who went out of the Batasan Pambansa to join their supporters/friends/'kakampi' ...i wonder if they thought that THEY WERE REPRESENTATIVES OF THEIR PEOPLE. so-called representatives should have been there, listening to what the President wanted to say. because in the first place, a closed ear cannot hear anything and HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THAT THEY ARE UNHEARD OR THEIR SENTIMENTS ARE NOT ATTENDED TO WHEN THEY DON'T ACTUALLY LISTEN IN THE FIRST PLACE.

i don't know why some representatives get rather dumb when they're actually very smart.

==
I watched 'A State of Mind' in Discovery Channel last night, a documentary on the "least understood State of North Korea".. I noticed a great deal of discipline among its citizens and they respect their General Kim Jong Il very much. They even have in their oath to defend the General to their death.

That's what Filipinos lack. Discipline and Loyalty - primary reasons why Filipinos cannot achieve success. It's not poverty, it's not the continuous rise of everyday necessities but the discipline among people.

Man can survive anything only if they are disciplined and they have a state of mind that pursues to survive independent of anyone.

Filipinos must bear in mind that they should be learning how to fish, and not learning how to wait for people who will give them food on their table.

wai~!!!!!

2006-07-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

presenting: LEE JOON-KI (2nd leading man of Lee Da-Hae in My Girl sa ABS CBN before A Love to kill ...which is also a favorite cos of RAIN ..hmwaahahahaha~!!!)

ang gwafu mygad~~~~!!!!

fortune cookie

2006-07-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

my gradeschool classmate died last wednesday. he committed suicide by hanging himself...

what could he be thinking? feeling that time?

is he happy now? i hope so.

may you rest in peace, Jayson.
==
sometimes i want to know the exact date and time of my death.. not because i want to get ready but because sometimes, i can hardly wait.

i suppose i am selfish ...or can't endure much from life.

is that my fault? i don't think so. it's nobody's fault. it just happened that people are very different from each other and yet they're all the same.

==
i miss having to watch animax everyday. i miss playing the violin. i miss playing with my cat. i miss going to the movies with Det. i miss sleeping 8 hours a day. i miss my college friends. i miss malling with my sister.

...and yesterday, i made my first absent in class. and i missed a lot of things.

==
::sigh:: many times i think of quitting law school. i don't want to read books anymore. i don't want to read cases anymore. i don't want to suffer recitation everyday anymore. i don't want to see my professor's faces anymore.

but... i think i have to. because somehow i can feel that i'll be good at what i might be doing years from now, after I pass the bar, after i become a member of the Philippine politics...

==
chowking fortune cookie:

"Be confident. Success is within your reach."

i was elected

2006-07-15T11:29:00.000+08:00

treasurer. NYEEEEHHH...

my mom bought me a copy of Gakuen Alice 1-15... i was so excited to go home last week cos i thought she bought a complete series. she thought so too. >_>; the freakin store didn't even tell her that second CD is still unavailable...

i kept my hopes up. myu~ ...nabitin. T__T

GISELLE... how am i gonna catch you now?

update. sa wakas.

2006-07-05T17:19:00.000+08:00

pasensya na sa katagalan ng aking hindi pagbabalita ng aking mga karanasan.

actually, wala naman na dapat ibalita. kinakatay ako sa recitation na nagkakataong hindi ako nakakapag-aral dahil sa lablayp (once lang yun), nagpa-pop quiz sa mga araw na nang-lablayp na naman ako...

may muscle na'ko dahil sa mga libro at ang bag ko'y parang pang-laptop sa laki at haba.

iniyakan ko ang sangkatutak na xerox na dapat basahin ng isang araw lang, ....para sa isang 1 unit subject na epal. 200 pages para sa isang kasong ididiscuss along with other 200-paged cases. gago talaga amp.

yun. hinanakit.

first week

2006-06-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

sleep is good... after how many days without it.

i started reading my books for daily torture aka recitation with intimidation (and threat. threat to fail. LOL) on the second day of classes ...and i couldn't remember having a GOOD sleep since.

Political law readings, criminal law, persons, the 1987 constitution, civil code, revised penal code, cases... all of them are incredibly and annoyingly long.

well, some are easy to understand but difficult to remember, some are easy to remember but difficult to understand... i have to balance things, manage my schedule, work with my classmates, face my professors with courage (although i haven't had my first recititation yet).

i even had to give up my violin lessons because i chose to prioritize my studies. :(

i have to, i need to, i want to. it's good to want things that are difficult to do so that i may strive to make my future bright...

and i thank the people that support me and take care of me and love me..

Adeth
My sister
My parents (Happy father's day popo!)

==
My new friends: Marian, Claire, Owen, Fay, Tintin... Block 1A.. i'm so glad to have known you..
Let's do this thing!
==
i need a new phone. :(

==
ABS CBN's featuring an interview with Rain tonight and i can hardly wait. :D
Watch A LOVE TO KILL. it's definitely worth watching. :D
and maybe ABS CBN can ask him to have his concert here. mwahahaha~!

==
Marian and I think that Toni Gonzaga's first single "we belong" is so much like Utada Hikaru's "First Love". ...tsk tsk tsk

night sched

2006-06-11T11:39:00.000+08:00

start of classes this tuesday, i'm in block 1A.. i don't know anyone in that block. at least Nina has Ey, they can go together... i'm not scared, or nervous ....just .... i remember that feeling when i was still in 1st year college...

balik freshman na naman ako. only this time, my first day starts at 7 pm. wala na maghahatid sa'kin pauwi every night, or maghahawak ng bag ko or books, or wala na'kong kasabay mag-dinner... katabi matulog...

not because we're not together anymore. we're just taking different paths now. magkikita naman kami.... sometimes. like ...

once a month. T__T

==
Rain's newest single Sad Tango is in Japanese. Last friday ko lang na-realize... astig. :D

*Kanawa nai kedo kimi wo motometeru yo
Kanau mono nara sugu ni mo kimi no te wo tori
Finding ways to get you back
All I want is U
Demo mada chikaduke nai kyori wo kanjiru no sa
feel my heart
Tamashii ga nuketa mitai
Sou iwarete mo shikata ga nai yo ima no boku ja
Kimi tono ai no hibi owara nai to
Sou zutto shinjiteta
Soredemo
Mada kimi no ayamachi yurusete shimau jibun ga motto setsunai
Ima wa hitori odori tsudukeru dake sa
Please come back baby

ZAC HANSON GOT HITCHED. OMG

2006-06-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

oh yeah, my bestfriend Monica told me that Zac Hanson got married last Saturday, June 2. with someone named Kate Tucker...

oh well. i was just STUNNED. myu~

i liked Zac a lot. harharhar...

===
ZAC IS 20, SO AM I.... BUT..... I'M NOT MARRIED. .... OR AM I?

*EVIL LAUGH*

only we know the truth.

don't think you know, what you know is bullshit.

this is just one of the days

2006-05-30T20:09:00.000+08:00

na nakakainis.

+tinatamad akong gumalaw
+tinotoyo ako
+nang-aaway ako ng laber
+tinatamad akong magviolin
+ndi ako naniniwala sa mga lalaking loyal. pakiramdam ko lang nagsisinungaling sila.
+wala akong ganang kumain
+sumasakit ang mata 'ko
+nabibwisit ng sooooobbbbraaaa sa kahit ano.

at may apat akong malalim na kalmot sa braso.

snatcher.

2006-05-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

this one, i snatched from Carlo Silva's friendster account. This is his description of himself:

"i'm angsty by the way .. but nothing like your usual teenage-anime loving-gets better fucking grades than you-angst .. people like that are angsty just for the sake of being angsty .. the thing is .. they think being angsty is cool .. and so they project angst through themselves just so that they'd have an image for people .. what's inside is what counts the most .."

I don't know if Carlo will get mad at me for taking his statement without his knowledge, but one thing for sure... he knows why I took it.

Gomen ne, Caoi... and thanks for everything and for all you've taught me.

i really think this angsty image is NOT cool at all.

to you, because you know who you are

2006-05-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

hindi ko kaya.

kahit ilang beses kong subukang tumalikod,
hindi ko kaya.

kahit ilang beses sabihing tama na,
hindi ko kaya.

bakit kailangang maging mali ang mga bagay na masaya?

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26.05.06
LCB-operating room 8 @ 8:33 AM, habang nag-ooperate ng c-arm

lumabas kami kahapon. sinamahan ko s'yang pumunta sa APMC, sa may Quezon Avenue ... masaya. kumain kami sa Goldilocks (masarap ang pagkain basta gutom ka na at isang buong araw kang walang kinakain...). mga dalawang oras siguro kami do'n... binasa n'ya ang aking sulat ng "pamamaalam" at pinag-usapan namin ang mga bagay-bagay... hindi ko talaga kayang magpaalam. naiinis na ako sa sarili ko.

nung pauwi na kami, nakasiksik ako sa kanya habang siya ay nakaakbay sa akin. masaya. masayang sumiksik sa taong ... gusto mo. naalala ko ang magkasintahan na nakasakay ko sa jeep noong minsang pauwi ako sa dormitoryo ng kapatid ko sa dapitan. nakasiksik sila sa isa't-isa, at natuwa ako sa nakita ko. at kahapon gano'n din kami. at ang sarap ng pakiramdam. parang... kahit na wala akong karapatan, gusto kong tumingin sa mga tao at sabihin ng buong pagmamalaki, "he is my guy and i am his girl".. masaya, masaya.

pasensya... pasensya sa taong nasasagasaan namin. sa MGA taong nasasagasaan namin.

pasensya.

at para sa 'yo, sana kahit papa'no, masaya ka. at sana alam mong tapos na ko sa paglalaro.
==============================================

thanks sa may-ari ng blog. signing out.

malayang tala

adeth

2006-05-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

you don't know how much it pains me to see you cry especially this time when I am the reason.

it's as if my own shadow stabs me a thousand times with a dagger in a form of a letter - the one i wrote a year ago about my first love and how i longed for him... and you did all you can to read the letter this morning.

i warned you didn't i? that the letter would hurt you more than ever.. that the letter would only cause raucus between us. but you still went your way, even went to the CR to read it.

i hated myself, and after you've calmed down, you hugged me and made hushing sounds whenever i apologized..

a thousand apologies will never be enough... i know, i can feel.

when i asked you that if i would say "i love you," would you still believe me?...you said, yes. i was silent for more than an hour, thinking if it was true. and i couldn't cry. why? what right do i have?!

yet you continued to hug me, while all i could ask myself was, "am i even worthy of this?"

when will you stop being nice to me?

that was torture, did you know that? it's guilt, regret and hate all mixed together.

i still hate myself. this wound on my left wrist would stay forever, scarred with time.

BI - rain

2006-05-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

...what's worse, having your period? or having a pimple?

i choose the latter. pakehr.

==
may bagyo pala. >_> signal # 1 kami dito...
and yet, the rain is very soothing.. ndi malakas, ndi ambon.
and when i hear its sound on the roof outside my window, ::sighs::

natural high.

==

ohooyyyy... kamusta naman ang anime na'to. @_@ astehg.

==
OMG! na-download ko na!!! :D

+ a song of storm and fire (tsubasa chronicles/syaoran's theme)
+ blaze (TRC op)
+ Loop (TRC ed)
+ Zutto kimi no soba de (Flame of recca 2nd ed)

memory, all alone in the moonlight, la la la la la la la...

2006-05-11T20:37:00.001+08:00

i wonder how it is to lose my memories.

will it be a good thing? it's like living your life from the start, but more cautiously since you're old enough to know what's right or wrong.

will it be a bad thing? not knowing those who have helped you be the person you are before losing your memory. or not knowing the people you have loved and have loved you in return. not knowing the people who have made you stronger even though they broke your heart many times.

i wonder if losing my memories can make me a better person.. and there's nothing to worry about cos even if i did lose my memories, it won't hurt me because i know nothing.

and the others, they will be in great pain only if they want me to remember them. but if they don't care at all, then there's none.

==
all these thoughts brought by Tsubasa Chronicles. Thursdays at 1900H. on animax.

3 hours byahe.4 hours in navotas.3 hours byahe ulit

2006-05-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

wai!! before i went to Det's this morning, i caught the final episode of UFO Baby. sa wakasssss!!!!!!

momoka grew up to a very pretty lady, who still rode her bike... and miu and kanata got married and had a daughter who almost looked like ruu. Ruu and bowmeow went back to earth, and ruu looked like a lanky boy... oh well... i expected Ruu to be more handsome and taller.

anyway, it's Det's mom's birthday today so I went to their house to eat. LOL Det's cousin Gail went gaga over me again and she was so cute!!! :D]

==

one of the best episodes of gakuan alice.

strawberry

2006-05-09T14:18:00.000+08:00

Alice Academy is getting more exciting. =D Natsume called Mikan "Strawberry" and Mikan went all red. XD her panty was actually designed strawberry and Natsume saw it when Mikan bent over to knock on a wall... and they were inside a dark box of walls!!!!!!!!!

LOLOLOLOL

Then Ruka and Hotaru went searching for them inside the haunted house which was an attraction made by the sematic types for the academy festival. and when Ruka bumped the wall of the box to actually free natsume and mikan, he and hotaru saw Mikan on top of Natsume. Ruka shook and had sweatdrops all over. It was soooo funny!

LOLOLOLOL

I think Ruka likes Mikan cos he blushed when Mikan was wearing the genie costume. and well.... I think Natsume likes her too. He's just not good in showing his emotions... actually, he has no emotion at all.

Like Hotaru and his older brother, one of the principals.

==
What's this Dark Angel anime in QTV... it seems very interesting. hmmm

==
I went to school yesterday to enroll. T_T there were sooo many law freshmen and T___T i got so tired finishing the rest of the 5 steps. JUST 5 STEPS!!

good thing Det was there waiting for me. =)

ang pagbabalik ng otaku

2006-05-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

ampangit ng diploma.
pero... diploma pa rin yun.

I caught Gakuen Alice's last monday episode and ... T__T i almost
drooled over natsume!!!!!! and ruka almost did too 'cos Mikan wore a
genie costume for the alice festival. XD

Natsume and Mikan looks cute together. :D

Hotaru doesn't seem to worry about Mikan but... like Det used to say, obvious reasons are not always the basic reasons.

want list:
+ ultra maniac series

+ gakuen alice series

+ Zutto kimi no soba de mp3

+ tsubasa reservoir chronicles series

+ fruits basket series

+ TRC soundtrack

Gakuen Alice!

bewitching free time

2006-05-04T12:40:00.000+08:00

I transferred from Lyric Music School to Music Wizard home tutorial. hehe... The schools have different methods.

Now I'm using the Suzuki School of Music Method where they make the children listen to the recorded pieces then they make you play it (while reading the notes) together with the CD.

I can now play Twinkle Twinkle little Star Variation A and variation D and the original Twinkle Twinkle or the 'Theme'. I can also play Lightly Row which I've heard from Sang doo! Hakk yo
ga ja! and also Song of the Wind (that i'm having difficulty doing the freaking "fa-re-sol-fa-mi") and Go Tell Aunt Rhody. The songs are all childish and ancient but they're big help to me. :)

We went swimming last night at club manila east. I wore a bathing suit. XD

Ayon... nothing much. I'm only busy with Seiryu and Law school.

==tapos na pala Ultra Maniac. I want to buy a complete copy of its series.

*ang gwafu ni Tsujiai!*

nakakapagod.

2006-04-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

the thanksgiving dinner went fine last night. i wore a black tube top paired with a black ankle-length black skirt.. my cousin said i lacked black nail polish and black eyeliner then i could have scared the hell out of my other little cousins.

anyway, most of the visitors were relatives and family friends. only two came from UST, Det and April. April came with her longtime boyfriend, Russel, who was actually my sister's gradeschool classmate. asteg.

Det slept over.

ayon... nothing much to tell.

i'll probably go to UST Civil Law soon...

just pics

2006-04-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

family.. hehe.

the men in my college life.

then me and my cousins with our grandmother (mama's nanay)

superiority complex

2006-04-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

Kamusta naman.

Ganun talaga ang mga tao noh!?

here's the situation:

Girl is a bigtime advertising exec and she has Boyfriend but Boyfriend is also preoccupied with his work. Now Girl has to go to Baguio to search for her brother's runaway fiancee.. She asks for
Boyfriend's company but Boyfriend refuses. So Girl goes to Baguio alone. While there, Boyfriend calls her and tells her that if she doesn't go back, Boyfriend will not wait for her. So.. they break up, just that.

Fastforward... Boyfriend sees Girl at a restaurant with Other Guy whom she met at Baguio (and of course, something happened* while they were in Baguio). Boyfriend calls her and asks if she's in the office, Girl hides the truth (because she and Other Guy were talking about something important and obviously didn't want interruption). So Boyfriend comes out and tells her she's a liar.

Yon.

My problem?! Here:

Bakit may mga taong laging sinisisi ang mga babae? Some girls won't do things that are considered to be wrong by the norms if the guys won't trigger them. Come on!

Boyfriend lacked affection, trust and support. and even if Girl made a mistake by sleeping with Other Guy AFTER they BROKE UP, still, Boyfriend made a mistake first. and even if she lied by saying she was in the office, it still wouldn't count, considering the situation. Whattheheck.

Pero these people cannot see that men do dumb things that make girls go nuts.

WOMEN ARE NOT INFERIOR TO MEN! MEN AREN'T GODS AND THEY'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO ACT ONE.

if men are caught with other girls, they're labelled as cool. When women are caught with other guys, they're labelled as easy girls. That is just soooooooooooooo unfair!!! I can't believe these people! And if men are doing not-so-clean things, they are ONLY doing something FUN! but with women!!! it's different, they're already being put down by a lot of people.

ang hirap kasi with other girls, sila yung gumagawa ng paraan para maging mababa ang tingin sa kanila ng ibang tao. (I, for one, made a mistake BUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTT!!! i'm redoing things now, so I can make a good name for myself. erm... it's nothing dirty or naughty but it's not supposed to be an act of what my father termed MARIA CLARA.)

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anyway, i just watched Don't Give Up On Us starring Piolo Pascual and Judy Ann Santos. That was where the freaking situation came from but I was toootalllly affected (so i stopped watching in the middle of the movie) 'cos someone I'm supposed to know had just put down women unconsciously. which is even worse.

i also watched Memento Mori (YEY!!), The Family Stone and Exorcism of Emily Rose this afternoon..

wala lang.

Shishio Makoto pala anoh!? LOL

2006-04-22T15:19:00.000+08:00

UPDATE!!

wala lang... after a three hours of violin lessons, i suppose am doing quite alright... i've only started bowing whole notes, and a few strokes on the half and quarter notes... Randy dandy is trying to teach me stuff about major scales and i need to understand them better.

anyway, i'm missing my classmates.. but i'm more missing my friends... not just my real friends but the people i thought were my real friends. i'm missing them because we shared things too.. and it's sad to to just throw all the memories away... I have two people who were special to me even for just a while..

i'm missing pei too even though it's been only five days since we last saw each other...

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i had my hair cut this morning. don't expect anything weird... LOL

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sana matuloy ang gimik namin nina Patty mamaya. Miss ko na rin highschool barkada ko...

*sighs* when i think about it, i do take people for granted because i expect them to stay... but i learned my lesson... those you treasure as friends may also go away because of a single mistake that you never intended... but hey! i'm not the only one who committed a mistake, you know.. they did too.

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i didn't get to watch the TRC since its first airing. :( anu na kaya nangyari?

and i sacrificed CardCaptor Sakura for Seiryu!! (Seiryu is the name of my violin. Hehe)

the weak shall die and the strong shall live. - Shishio from Samurai X. ahahaha

2006-04-15T17:56:00.000+08:00

The whole holy week was supeeeer hectic for me. I was busy from Wednesday until last night.

Last wednesday, we arranged and designed the camarin of the Santo Entierro with flowers and brought it to the Ynares Plaza in downtown at 11 PM. It was put there with the other saints for exhibit the next day.

Maundy Thursday: some of my relatives and I went to the plaza to stay by the entierro so nothing of our possessions would be lost. There were so many people already... there was also a Pasion ng Bayan thing. Of course, Santo Entierro mostly became the 'main attraction'. My Uncle Pio (who's the same age as me) came with my Lola Ceci from La Union. My Tita Jelyn (who's the same age as my sister) and her boyfriend, JB also came from Laguna.

We barely slept after coming home at 5:30 am after the Pasion ng Bayan. we had to bring the entierro back to my grandmother's place to dress it up anew and do some more cleaning.

Good Friday: we woke up at 8:30, yearning every minute we could get to close our eyes but unfortunately we had to go back to my grandma's place to help with the chores there. we had to design the camarin with flowers, help with the giving of food to those who were reading the passion of Christ and those who were claiming to be 'nagpapanata' who visited the entierro before the procession and run errands for the 'authorities' aka the elders.

then at 3 pm, the women relatives including me, brought the santo entierro to its camarin... unfortunately, other non-relative women came under the entierro's bed that it already became so crowded my Mom and I had to go out or else we'd be squished.

what I did was to shove all the men who were touching the saint's body and bed when the instruction given was only women were allowed to touch it first. and the men were supposed to just bring the camarin to the church in downtown...

also, Ron Aldrin's (X) siblings were sooooo i-don't-know-what cos they were calling me over and over and pointing me to strangers who were probably their relatives saying, "yan si ate Jama." then the strangers would nod, looking at me with their funny-yet-scary facial expressions. ...Ron must be telling them things about me. I'm gonna kill that guy.

then we went home at 1 am after almost being killed at the procession. (yeah, the procession of the Santo Entierro is always deadly here in Binangonan. that's why it was called Santo Giwang-giwang because it sways and it takes people with it. and that's also the main reason why it's always the main attraction... because people here love to see others get hurt and sweaty. the procession lasts for almost 6 hours because of the Giwang-giwang.)

i was sooooo exhausted.

but it was fun, i wanna get inside the river of sweaty men and almost be murdered again.

geez

2006-04-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

don't want to speak cos i know i'll hurt you.

but i hate it when you make parinig.

me lang ang may right to do that.

squabble ka dyan. like your making parinig isn't annoying enough, duh. >_>

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okay, so i sounded like an idiot. what do i care? and why would i?

syucks

2006-04-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

April 9, 2006

/edit: deleted the part that caused ruckus during the weekend. creative writing will never be appreciated if the writer has a significant other who's uber doubtful of the writer's loyalty.

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Wow... Chronicle of the wings (Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles) is beautiful!!! At first I thought it was a continuation of Card Captor Sakura since the characters were there: Sakura, Syaoran, Touya, Yukito, Tomoyo, etc. ... but Chii of Chobits was there. >_< so i researched about it and it was actually an original story by Clamp. mya~

I thought Sakura and Syaoran of CCS really did got together.

enlightenment

2006-04-04T18:21:00.000+08:00

Kanashimi no tenshi === angel of sadness.

i suppose being an angel of sadness, i bring such to people i love.

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i was reading Paulo Coelho's The Valkyries the other night and his quest for love and magic.

and i came across a tradition saying,

"When God wants to drive a person insane, He grants that person's every wish."

...now i understand why I didn't pass Ateneo Law.

anyway, i have already passed San Beda College of Law. It used the Center for Measurement's Law exam and I obtained an overall grade of 97% (excellent).

and if I pass the interview in UST, I'll be choosing between the two good schools.

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Flame of Recca is airing on Animax again. It would have been great but... Recca's name is being pronounced as Rika, and Kagero as Kageruw. >_>

Am waiting for Chronicle of The Wings... the trailer makes it so beautiful. It'll be starting on the 6th at 7 pm.

oh and yeah... i have finally caught fushigi yuugi on animax but it was the episode when Tamahome-chan's family got murdered. the episode where i cried so much! mya~!!!!

oh... and nuriko was sooooooooooooo handsome when he took off his clothes. @___@

murahin ang sarili paminsan-minsan

2006-04-01T22:30:00.001+08:00

madaming nagsasabing 'wag kang umasa kung ayaw mong masaktan.
pero kapag ba hindi ka umasa, matatakasan mo ang sakit?

hindi naman eh.
sa totoo lang, mas masakit pa.

alam mo kasing dapat hindi ka masaktan dahil hindi ka naman umasa, pero masakit na maramdamang nasasaktan ka pa rin kahit alam mo na ang mangyayari.

higit pa dun, nawawalan ka ng tiwala sa maraming bagay.
sa tao, sa sarili mo, sa kakayanan mong manalangin, at sa pagdinig Nya sa panalangin mo.

sasabihin ng maraming tao na hindi ka dapat mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili mo dahil ikaw lang ang makapagbabangon sa'yo kahit ano pang gawing suporta ng iba. pero wala ka nang magawa kapag ikaw mismo ang humahatak sa sarili mo pababa.

at paghatak mo, nahahatak mo rin ang mga taong gusto mong iangat. ang mga taong dahilan kung bakit ka nagpupursiging iangat ang sarili mo.

oo nga pala, hindi ako pumasa sa Ateneo.

CONGRATULATIONS

2006-03-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

Journalism Batch 2006 just graduated last night. CONGRATULATIONS MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will never forget any of you!!
Thank you,

>>>Jhoboy - for always listening to me and my paulit-ulit stories about love. :D you're the first man in my college life (together with Kiko).
>>>Jessa - for always listening and giving pieces of advice.
>>>Brent - for doing things for me and for being my confidant.
>>>Ria Hazel - for singing the most heart warming songs when people are down
>>>Daisy - for laughing with me everytime I am bored in class. Without you, I would have looked like a crazy person to others.
>>>Kaiz - for your cute drawings and wonderful tagalog fictions.
>>>Meri - for being beautiful. :D kras kita!
>>>Meysil - for bearing with my mood swings and mga mala-dictator na utos. Without you, our thesis would have not succeeded! you're such a great writer.
>>>Art - for listening, for making fun of me, for making me laugh, for giving wonderful pieces of advice, for being the panda bear that i will never forget.
>>>Carmela - for the pants and talks
>>>April - for listening and for craving my stories.
>>>Tristan - for always making me laugh.
>>>Chris - for being serious and quiet. you always know the right thing to say.
>>>Abi - for giving me Middle of Nowhere and Rain CDs. :)
>>>Liz - for creating my blogs and for continuing to amaze me with a lot of different things.
>>>Ned - for being the gayest of all gays. you make my life colorful.
>>>Nina - for providing me excitement of waiting for your wonderful baby girl. God has blessed you so much! Keep on receiving!
>>>Trixie - for your makukulit na hirit
>>>Marlene - for being courageous and responsible
>>>Corrs - for greeting me on your radio program, for making me laugh, and for being so nice to me

and all my classmates and batchmates, thank you!

obsession: part 2

2006-03-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

i went to the municipal hall this morning to have our tax declaration churvas assessed... so you know, i did something else today other than watch Fushigi Yuugi again. XD

anyway, does anyone know where I can purchase Fushigi Yuugi OVA 2 at the lowest price possible? (that's where Tamahome was reincarnated as Taka) ...and in a less complicated manner, please? no more web orders whatsoever. XD

<-- itooshi (hito no tameni) XP

the Suzaku 7 = Ryuen Chou (Nuriko), Houjun Ri (Chichiri), Myou Juan (Mitsukake), Shun'un Kou/Genrou (Tasuki), Dokun Oh (Chiriko), Saihitei Seishuku (Emperor Hotohori) and Kishuku Sou (Tamahome) with Miaka Yuuki.

obsession: 24 hours

2006-03-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

I am in love~!!!!!!

He has blue hair, gentle eyes that go fierce when he fights...

he has an Ogre symbol on his forehead and he is one of the Suzaku senshi.

His name is Sou Kishuku, also known as Tamahome.

wai~!!!!!!

God, he is just so beautiful!!!!!

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Last night, I got to watch Fushigi Yuugi up to the very last episode. I bought the complete series in Quiapo last wednesday together with Onegai Sensei. :)

I was expecting a tragic ending.

Although many of the senshis died during the battle between good and evil (nuriko, the beautiful nuriko, being the first to die), the ending was still happy. Tamahome went to the Earth (as a transferee to Keisuke's school, i just don't know if he still went by the name Tamahome) wearing the ring that Miaka bought in downtown Tokyo which they used to get 'married'.

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Anyway, last Sunday, my sister came home. We all went to Alabang Town center and my mom bought me a nice Polo for this Saturday's entrance exam at San Beda. She bought it at P1,500. what a.

then we ate at Friday's and went to Tiendesitas in Ortigas to buy more clothes. I only bought one blouse. >.<

There was a pet expo and I found Zang-ga! (a bull terrier from Sang doo, hakkyo ga ja!) he costs P35,000 so ....

then i wanted to have that fluffy cat but couldn't buy it because he was being sold at a tumataginting na P18,000. mya~

lamentation +others

2006-03-14T19:58:00.000+08:00

Det came to visit yesterday cos we had to finish our thesis that's to be submitted on the 15th.. and there were some other stuff we did. XP

and my CAT, Mr. Cow, died yesterday morning while Det and I were working on our thesis... :( i guess Mr. Cow was just waiting for my goodbye, and after I said farewell, he died. :(

then my mom came home early last night so we decided to go to the gym near our house... i did lots of stuff focusing on my abdomen.. mostly crunches and sit ups... and now my stomach feels a little different and quite painful...

i wanted Jana Roxas to win Starstruck but she was eliminated. I never liked Jackie Rice. She has no talent. I mean, when she was singing 'So Slow' of freestyle the other night, she couldn't hear her notes. >_> and Iwa, she could dance. but she had an attitude problem. As if Jackie never had one! She was the first to actually be in the attitude box, remembering the computer incident.

anyways, this reality-based artista search has just proven that many Filipinos have the colonial mentality: Jackie Rice and Iwa Moto.

But I always knew Marky would win. Magaling sa lahat, mukha pang Filipino. wagi.

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last night, while chatting with kuya art, i asked him and meri some questions on my mind... just that, if you asked somebody if he's still with his gf, and his reply was "doesn't matter", what could he possibly mean by that?

they both gave: he probably likes you too other than his gf.

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Happy birthday to Jorday Taylor L. Hanson. hahaha~!!!

yeah right.

2006-03-12T14:28:00.000+08:00

i'm beginning to think that you don't like your girlfriend that much.

it doesn't matter, huh? shut up.

puto.

2006-03-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

PUT A LITTLE MORE!!!!!!

hindi ako pumasa ng UPLAE!!!!! PUT A LITTLE MORE TALAGA!!!

nakaka.. anyway, nahirapan naman talaga ako dun.

maghihintay ako ng magandang resulta sa iba pang skwelahan. sana sa maganda at sa gusto kong skwelahan ako mapunta...

nakapasa nga pala ang aking friend and ex-classmate (highschool) Niner Guiao and highschool classmate din na si Kata Cosalan... both from UP college.

congratulations. sincerely.

lab meyks the warld iskweyr

2006-03-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

today's officially the start of vacation. :D then again........... i have LETs on march 17 & 25, in UST and Beda respectively.. saya. >_>

i saw my gradeschool ultimate crush last ash wednesday... march 1, i think. he was one of the cutest guys in school that time. @_@

can you believe he's not my type anymore? (my type is tall, lean, and has nice hair. he's short, cos i'm taller, chubby and bald)

i mean, i used to like him since i was in prep school till grade 6. for a few years, we were mutual. then in sixth grade, i was really into him but i was only his second crush (according to our common friend and classmate, Jo Anne Rae).. his first crush was another classmate (and i think he courted her too) named Marian Emae Grace ... it was the first time i cried over a guy..

WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

by the way, his name was GABRIEL CRUZ.

then it made me think...

+ first ever heartbreak over a crush: Cruz ...
+ first ever heartbreak over love: Cruz ....

nyahahahah!!!! so funny.

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Det got upset because somebody asked me out. it was so freakinly scary...

enough time to wait...and rest

2006-03-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

college is almost over!!! few more weeks before graduation and i don't know if i should be sad, scared, happy or excited. have lots of emotions inside....

+ there's det. and less time together.
+ another step in the path to 'perfecting' myself... AKA Law school
+ job. employment. slavery or whatever you call it that has no allowance from parents.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh....

at least life with Felicidad Pereña and her torturing skills will be over... thank God.

newest addiction

2006-03-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

A love to kill.

Shin min ah plays Cha Eun-suk, a top actress who was once Kang Bok ku's (Bi) brother's girlfriend. Bok-ku becomes her bodyguard to avenge his brother, who falls off a building while watching Eun-suk announce her engagement with another guy on TV and ends up in a vegetative state. But, ironically, Bok-ku ends up falling in love with Eun-suk against his wish.

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the most emotional part of this drama was when Bok ku told her that he was only pretending to love her.... when in fact, Bok ku cried when he kissed her while filming the scene for revenge because he was already loving her.

almost there...

2006-02-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

whew... i barely survived last week's hell..

we had our thesis defense last feb. 4 with two panelists, CT and AT. they weren't exactly scary and all but they were strict... CT never struck me as 'hotness' as det and ey calls her. she's not also that smart and pretty.... and she's rather boastful. in other words... i never liked her even from the beginning.

anyway, the panelists (esp. CT) wanted us to revise our methodolgy and data gathering. with that, it was like saying that our thesis is NOT valid at all. and we have 2 weeks to revise everything.. it was major suicide. CT was fuming while we were having defense, and ranting saying our code sheet was not a code sheet but a survey questionnaire. ...she calmed down when she realized she was being tape recorded. what can i say.

so we met with our thesis adviser, GP, who was not (of course) happy with what the two panelists suggested for us to do. she declared a war between her and CT, not speaking to each other and all that.... until GP forwarded the matter to her superior, Dept of Media Chair JA, who sort of backed us up.

Actually, our two previous research writing professors, NS and Media chair herself, agreed with us and our adviser that there is nothing wrong with our data gathering because a code sheet is definitely researchers-based. there is no standards for producing a code sheet... and so WE WON.

we only had two minor revisions with chapter one...just addendums and that's that. problem solved...

i don't know what CT is up to but nevertheless...she's blah compared to two professors with Ph.D. excuse me.

on other matters, graduation is a month and a few weeks closer.... can you believe it!? oooh... gives me the shivers.

anyway, i'm still hoping for good luck with the Law entrance exams..

this is definitely one of the best days of my life... and only i know the rest of the reason.

quizzes snatched from Det's blog

2006-01-25T13:21:00.000+08:00

HOW ARE YOU IN LOVE?
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone.
You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back.
When you fall, you fall hard.

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WHAT SONG WOULD YOU STRIP TO?
"You let me violate you,
you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me
I've got no
Soul to tell"

When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy.

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your ideal seduction style is: IDEAL LOVER

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

what is your seduction style?

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EROTIC THRILLER

You've made your own rules in life - and sometimes that catches up with you.
Winding a web of deceit comes naturally, and no one really knows the true you.
Your best movie matches: Swimming Pool, Unfaithful, The Crush

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

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YOU'RE A ROMANTIC KISSER

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

what kind of kisser are you?